whatsgoingon

LegacyUser

I'm trying to figure out what's going on inside my head. I seem to dread meeting people I know, more so during the day. It has increased over the last few months. I am insecure in myself, so maybe it has got worse over time. I'm not happy where I'm at in my job, being single etc. I'm quite sensitive to people's questions on my life. I'm often caught off guard. When I do meet 'some' people I know, I tense up, I'm awkward, intense eye contact, the conversation tense and I'm the one creating this.
I can stumble with words, e.g. recently I met a girl I know who works in a clothes shop I was in, and I asked her "oh you're out shopping" !!! when she was working there!! I just don't allow myself to stop and think. It's not necessarily from people I dislike, more, I'd just prefer if I didn't run into people I know at times.
Can anyone explain this? What is going on? I can be very hard on myself, and expect a lot from myself
However the odd day, if I'm feeling good, confident, happy, I'd engage easily and convo would flo on a confident level which can feel so good, but this is rare.

mashedbanana

It sounds as if you have days where you are just a little bit anxious. This can play up when you have a lot on your mind, it can make things worse! I get a bit higgildy piggildy myself sometimes too! I think we all do. :-)

Jabberwocky_I

This is a problem for me too OP. I tend to feel quite anxious about bumping into people I know when I'm out and about. I'm not entirely sure why, but it's worse when I'm having an off day/not feeling confident. I'm absolutely fine when away from my hometown. I'm not sure I can offer much in the way of advice as I've yet to tackle the problem. Replying moreso to let you know you're not alone in feeling this way. Have you tried talking to someone about it? Might help.
Either way, I think it's a self esteem issue and if you can work on that & begin to feel good about yourself, it won't matter what anyone else thinks. As I'm sure you know, the majority are wrapped up in their own thoughts so I'm sure they're not thinking/judging you.

Ham Sambo

Have a word with your GP, it sounds like border-line panic attacks you might be experiencing, if it is then your GP will sort and advise you, best of luck.

Pj!

Look up Social Anxiety Disorder.