what is wrong with me?

shy_boy

if i named all my problems the post would be very long

i dont weather i am getting myself together or ruining myself I seem to always want more and very impatient

my life is a reck im at my witts end with myself i want go to college and learn i have been to college twice and have droped ou because i cant get over what i think people ar thinking of me and i have a very horrid past which i cant get over either i have been to the doctor several times each time being told im deppressed and thrown tablets (I HATE FECKING TAKING EM) i dont sleep very well and i was drinking every nite for 2 years till i stoped im off it 3 weeks now because i realised life is hard without letting alcohol make it harder,

Every now and again i fall out with girlfriend i tell her i dont want to be with her and push away and she says its like treading on ice being around me but she always is there for me(I can never make a decision on anything)

Also in my past i have used drugs and alcohol(all is in the past but cant seem to shake it out of my head from the way i acted to the things i done,

I need help(HELP) If you can understand or relate to me please dont be shy about posting All posts will be apprciated Thanks

aknitter

I think a councellor would the way to go. Good Luck