Heartbroken over split

LegacyUser

Last night my boyfriend of 2 years sat me down and ended it.

It wasn't all that out of the blue-he'd been growing cold and distant over the last few weeks and I was reaching the end of my tether putting up with it.

He said he had realised he just wasn't ready for a relationship. I can't understand that, after 2 years together, this was only dawning on him now. We had always discussed having a future together (moving in later this year, eventually getting married etc, I wasn't looking for a proposal any time soon though) and he just suddenly decides this.

I'm heartbroken, feel angry at his reasoning and at myself for still loving him.

I've told him there's no going back and even if he realises he made a mistake, I won't be here.

I just feel so low and can't ever imagine feeling better again...

skyfall2012

I did this to my now husband after two years (when we were dating). I had a lot of emotional issues, wasn't sure what I wanted. He told me how much he loved me, but that he, like you was not going to be second fiddle to anyone else.

If I take up with someone else, there would be no coming back. So he gave me some space for a while, to figure a few things out.

I think either a little bit of space will make him realise his mistake or you might have had a lucky escape.

LegacyUser

skyfall2012 wrote: »

I think either a little bit of space will make him realise his mistake or you might have had a lucky escape.

Thanks for the reply.

I did ask if it was a case of "space" and he said he didn't think so. He knows I don't believe in "breaks", as they're just a cushion for a break up, and he agrees.

I miss him so much, if he did come crawling back I genuinely don't know what I'd do. He'd need to explain himself very fully and win back my trust anyway.

Typer Monkey

People often don't tell the complete truth when ending a relationship. They often decide on a line of explanation that they think softens the blow or paints them in the best possible light..the old cliched 'its not you, it's me' approach.

Sometimes telling someone that they just don't do it for you anymore, that you want to be free etc can just be too much for someone to say to their soon to be ex-partner's face.

Personally I think the bald honest truth is easier to deal with in the long term as it cuts out the uncertainty but some people just can't be brave enough and prefer to cushion the blow with meaningless explanations like 'I'm not ready for a relationship'. What they really mean is 'I don't want to be in a relationship with you'

I highly recommend a book called 'its called a breakup because its broken' by Greg Behrendt. It's a great help for regaining control but really the other old cliche that time is a great healer is actually true!

All the best

SunnyDub1

to be honest with you OP, as hard as it is you need to just move on.
It doesn't sound like something that just came out of the blue if he had been cold with you for a few weeks.
I'd say he knew a while ago that he didn't want to be with you anymore but was just looking for the "right" time to end it, which would have gave him time to think about it before saying it to you. So I'm sure it's a final end to the relationship.

Sometimes there is never a reason or explanation, things like this just happen. I have been there before myself not so long ago.

It's gonna be hard but it gets easy.
DON'T contact him.
Start focusing on yourself, surround yourself with Friends and family.
Talk to a close Friend, family member about how you are feeling.
Do things you enjoy and that will take your mind off it.
Organize something like a girls night out, or a holiday - something to look forward to.
Don't sit around feeling sorry for yourself, get out for a long walk.

The quicker you react the easier it will be. Trust me

Best of Luck

andyournameis

Hey People, I read this wonderful comment by some anonymous person on a forum and I want you all to read this too.. It'll Help you FOR SURE!!! Please take your time off and read this and I guarantee that you'll feel better! It is so true!
"I've been on this site for almost four months now. When I found it, I was sure that absolutely no one in the world had ever, or would ever, experience the pain that I was feeling after my break up. Funny. I found a virtual world full of folks who have gone through and experienced the same things and felt the same feelings that I did. That helped a lot.

So, for all you newbies who ask the questions, "Will the hurting ever stop," or "Will my ex come back," or "Why did he/she do this," this is how it typically goes down.

You two break up--doesn't matter who does it. You immediately panic and begin chasing, begging, pleading, harrassing, phoning, e-mailing, IMing, stalking (okay not all of them, just pick whichever one you did). Most of us will likely do some things during this stage that will make you cringe when you think back on it, say after about 3 months.

You lose weight. You neglect yourself, your house, your job (how many hours do we all log on this site while we are at work?). You drive your friends and family crazy talking about the break up. You cry at the drop of a dime. You can't even comprehend that your life might not again include that "special person." You begin putting them on a pedestal, forgetting all of the nagging things about them that used to drive you crazy. In your mind, they have become omnipotent, all encompasing, all everything.

You convince yourself that you are a loser who just screwed up a relationship with "the best person in the world." You KNOW without a doubt that you will never EVER love like that again. You know no one else will come along who even comes close to being as marvelous as your ex (excuse me while I chuckle to myself here). You wear a sad face for the world to see (you should see my work ID taken 2 days after my breakup, it's just pitiful).

They (the ex's) remain steadfast in their denial to get back together. Many of them leapfrog into new relationships, immediately being exclusive with a new person. For those that do leapfrog, they appear to just "replace" you with a new model. All of the things you two used to do, they now do with someone else. Bowling, cuddling watching television, motorcycle riding, antiquing. Whatever you two did, likely they will just begin doing those things with someone new.

You hear about them and their new life. You are desperate for any crumbs of news about their life. Many of us make things worse here by trying to use manipulation to get them back--yet they stay away from us like we are the plague.

For those of us who do still have contact with our ex's we begin selling ourselves short. Doing stupid things like allowing them access to our bodies and then wanting to strangle them afterward when they remind us that "Sex does not imply hope."

You, in further panic mode, begin frantically searching the internet using phrases such as "break ups," "divorce stopper," whatever. You stumble upon this site, pay your money because your curious and lo and behold, you find all of us folks in various stages of this whole breakup bullsh*t.

You voraciously read the posts. You search for news of those who "got their mates back." You're on the site constantly. You'll read the books and think "Ah I can do this. I can get this person back." You begin your "no contact" and for some of us, this will get a reaction from our ex's. For the rest, no contact is and will continue to be what you'll get and receive.

Time goes by. You'll do some stupid things. You'll call your ex when you shouldn't. You'll call when you've had to much to drink. You'll call even after 50 people on this site tell you not to. You'll show up on their doorstep, hating yourself all the time. Then you'll come back to this site and ask everyone to tell you why you were so stupid as to do whatever it was you did.

Then you'll get serious about no contact. It'll hurt, but you try to stick to it. Here's the turning point for most. For those folks who have contact with their ex's, your no contact will either bring them sniffing curiously around or they'll be somewhere high fiving their friends thanking the God's that you haven't called.

Now's the tough time. Nothing but time works. Everday the ache in your heart grows a little less. It's only nanobits that it dies down by. But everyday it will get slowly better. You'll have setbacks. You'll run into your ex accidently. You'll run into mutual friends who'll tell you something about your ex that'll have you high-tailing it home for a good cry. You'll see your ex with their new "friend." You'll receive a phone call or an e-mail from your ex who "doesn't want to be in a relationship but still wants to be friends (with benefits if you allow).

Here's another important part. You need to truly sit down and truthfully look back at the relationship and understand what you did to help with it's demise. If you miss this part, you go through all the suffering for nothing because Buddy, you'll be back here again. This site is to teach you about you. To teach you how to be a better partner, a better person. Missing that lesson is detrimental to the whole process. It's the REASON that you're going through this. God (or whatever your higher power is) needed you to learn something about YOU. Don't miss out on the lesson.

Then one day you'll smile because you didn't immediately check your answering machine when you came in. And one day you'll decide to clean the muck that has accumulated in your house. And one day you'll go outside and admit to the universe that you surrender what control you thought you had.

And one day you'll decide to date again. And one day you'll go out on your first date and it will likely be a disaster. And then you'll either force yourself to continue dating or you'll decide that you aren't ready to date but you are ready to be out amongst people again. And many of you will have some quick reconcillations with your ex's. Many of us won't. But one day, it won't matter as much. Because time will allow you to catch yourself going minutes and then hours without thinking of the ex. And you'll begin to be able to think of life possibly without that person and not dissolve into a puddle of nothingness because of the thought.

And for most of us, sadly, life will go on without that mate. That's the truth, amigos. Don't want to dash your hopes but probably less than 3% of the people on this site get back with their mates. Sobering isn't it? But, as the site instructs, you must accept this before you can truly begin to heal or draw your ex back to you. For the lucky (maybe unlucky one's depending on how much work it will take to keep a mate that has wandered back) who get back with their ex's, many will find that the paradise they envisioned isn't reality and what they once thought was gold has a certain tarnish to it now. But they stay and try and make it work because it's comfortable or, if they are really lucky, it's meant to be.

But for most of us. Life goes on. And one day you'll find yourself having a gut busting laugh over something totally stupid and you'll think to yourself "I am getting better." And finally (thank God) you'll have sex with some new and find that a) if it wasn't good, at least you did it or b) it was so much better than with your ex you wonder why you waited so long to get back out there. And you'll know you're one the road to recovery.

I guess what I'm trying to convey here is, while each situation is unique, the characteristics of most of our situations are the same. Most of us will go through at least something that I've written here. So, when someone tells you on this site that time will help you get through it, believe them. When they tell you that "trust me, it will get better and you will stop hurting eventually," believe them. And when they give you good advice that your head understands but your heart rejects, take a moment to think before you react.

Don't beat yourself up if you do something that you wished you hadn't (calling, contacting, etc) WE ALL DID AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER. Be kind to yourself. Be forgiving of yourself. And most of all remember that being happily single is an alternative. Even if society is beating it into your head that you MUST have a mate, take some time to heal before going back out there. There are plenty of good people to love, but don't go back out there broken, jaded about love, etc. Accept realty. Experience the pain. Learn the lesson. Actively try to heal. Remember the person you were when you first met your ex and get that person back.

LegacyUser

andyournameis wrote: »

Hey People, I read this wonderful comment by some anonymous person on a forum and I want you all to read this too..back.

Thanks for that, it did make me feel slightly better.

To be honest I'm sleep deprived too at the min, which is probably making me even more emotional than I am already. First step is trying to get a decent night's sleep tonight

I'm just going to focus on keeping as busy as possible over the next while, it'll take my mind off things if nothing else.

Still don't feel like I fully understand what happened to what I thought, until recently, was a happy relationship. Problems were always communicated quite well, and we were always open about stuff we were unhappy with.

Guess he's just not who I thought he was

andyournameis

Silence is power, I promise you that. Don't ring or text him, no matter how hard you want to...Leave him miss you, Seriously meet your friends, KEEP BUSY.... put your phone on silent at night, that way you can avoid drunken phone calls from him if he rings you... Start today as day 1 of no contact, I promise you it works.... If you are really struggling log on to www.loveshack.org/forums
It's the bible!!

Take care of yourself and best of luck