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losing your old self to make way for new you

  • 15-12-2012 4:51pm
    #1
    LegacyUser
    Registered Users, Registered Users 2 Posts: 166,026 ✭✭✭✭


    I've suffered from depression on and off since i was 16. it got really bad this year and i've been in counselling for a good while now. I'm so much better than i was 7 months ago, and i can safely say that the girl who went into counselling those 7 months ago is gone. i attend cbt and was there yesterday and we got into how it feels to be able to say that... it feels great. but we got in deeper and i became emotional. this persona of me has been with me for the last 22 years of my life. i want to let her go because i want to move on, but i get so upset when i think about it. yesterday we kept talking about it as "her" and i was saying that i feel sorry when i think of her, that i want to be able to give her a hug, the hug she was waiting for, the hug from myself that everything is going to be ok, that you/i am ok, that we are loved and cared for, and it feels so good to be able to say it. i'm crying out of happiness here. thing is, i feel like i'm greiving, like i have lost something. i know it's good but i can't help but feel a bit sad.. is this normal? i tried explaining to my mam and she asked how come i got upset because it's a good thing. i'm just feeling a bit confused right now!


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  • #2
    Tigger99
    Registered Users, Registered Users 2 Posts: 6,247 ✭✭✭Tigger99


    Ah pet of course its normal. Counselling helped me with something & all I wanted to do was hug my old self for what she went through.

    Why don't you talk to your counsellor about it the next time you see them, if its preying on your mind?


  • #3
    pinkdiamond
    Closed Accounts Posts: 78 ✭✭pinkdiamond


    I'm the same boat as you honey. So happy with the way I am now, but grieve the child that I used to be. My current situation doesn't make me sad, but thinking back on how confused and upset I was does. You're not alone. It's completely normal and means you're making great progress. Well done! :)


  • #4
    Call Me Jimmy
    Registered Users, Registered Users 2 Posts: 8,449 ✭✭✭Call Me Jimmy


    I'm in a very similar position (not as positive) but the idea of grieving for a past self, growing and moving onto the next stage is something I have to come to terms with too. Some days I'm better able to do this than others, there are days where I just get lost in that past self, all the things that could have been different. A little tweak here or there could have made all the difference.

    But I'm finding that it takes time to undergo such a shift in mentality, realising you are not the person you were but you are now something different. I think you seem to be doing all the right things and it will be just a matter of time for you to come to terms with the new, stronger you.


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