Depression - Not sure if the meds are affecting me or something else?

LegacyUser

I would first like to say I am not looking for medical advice. I am already under treatment for depression and would really just like to hear if others have experienced the same thing.

I have been on anti-depressants for the past 3 months or so. I had been at a point where I was so down I wouldn't even leave my bed somedays.

I am now much better but still unhappy in where I am in life. I don't know if it is because I am actually unhappy, I am still somewhat depressed or if the medication is making me feel numb.

I am miserable in my job, but i've taken steps to fix this and I'm leaving to start a new job in a few weeks which I am looking forward to.

My problem is I am also unhappy in my relationship. I've recently even had a brief affair which is normally something I wouldn't even consider and would be very against. We are due to get married soon and I don't want to go ahead. I am afraid that I am just feeling this way because of my medication or depression or something. It would cause a great deal of hurt to mt fiance and to both our families and we also have a child to think about. I don't want to cause all this trouble if my feelings aren't real.

I really haven't been myself, I would usually be quite emotional (aside from the depression) I 'd always have tended to get teary when I see something touching and always cry at weddings. I'vve been to 4 in the last 2 months and haven't cried at one, even though some of them were people that I am very close too. I also felt no guilt whatsoever for my affair, in honesty the other party ended it because he felt guilty. I don't laugh at things anymore. I just feel numb in a lot of ways and I'm not sure what is real and what is not.

Does anyone have any experience of this? Any advice would be helpful

Lorna123

I am not a medical person but I have often heard it said that anti-depressants can lead to further bad moods and sometimes very dangerous feelings. I would go back to your GP and try and discuss getting off them and see if this changes anything. Wishing you all the best.

jessiejam

Are you getting any help with your depression other than the medication?
The meds will treat the symptoms but not the cause.

Go back to your gp and tell her how you are feeling, there are loads of different types of Anti-D's out there, you may have to try something different until you find one that suits you.

Maybe try some councelling to find out the root cause of why you are where you are. i found psychotherapy excellent. You may not be thinking objectively either so best not make any rash decisions while you are receiving treatment.

Best of luck with it all.

AnonoBoy

Meds can make you a bit numb. They take the edge off alright which can be what you need to start rebuilding yourself.

They won't solve anything though, they're just a helpful tool. You need to talk to someone for real help I think.

If you feel out of sorts though or you think the meds are having too much of an effect your first port of call should always be your doctor.

Few points -

Anti-depressants can also make any bad feelings worse sometimes. If you find this, go to the doctor that prescribed the medication and tell them about it.

They usually take a few months to kick in and different ones have different effects on people.

They should never be used as a "cure-all". They're just a crutch, as Anonoboy said, to take the edge off. It's up to you to do the hard work in getting better. Talk to your doctor and see about possible counseling sessions to find where these issues are coming from.