how do I stop myself?

jennuder

My life is a disaster. I am 21 years old, I live at home still but I am messing up my life. I can't stop myself from going out drinking. I don't go out every night but when I do I can't stop drinking. I drink so much that I black out, I throw up, I make the most stupid choices and sometimes I can't even walk. I have been robbed, been beaten up, been badly injured, threw up when I was asleep when I drink and I still do it. I don't mean to do it and most of the time I don't have any intention to go out drinking and still I end up like this. Things have just gotten so bad and I don't know what to do. my family won't even speak to me anymore because of what I do. I lie and I end up in this state and I think it has come to the end for them.
I am scaring myself. I don't know what to do

AnonoBoy

Go to your doctor and ask for help.

tony81

I did a lot of the same back in the day. Its all part of growing up. I suggest you deposit all your discretionary income to the credit union so you wont have spare cash to go out drinking.

Princess Peach

I was very similar at your age! Took me a long time to learn my limits!

Look at the reasons to why you are going out so often and drinking. I realised the reasons after I was diagnosed with depression, I started taking medication which I shouldn't have been drinking on, but kept drinking anyway, genius idea :P

I sought counseling a while later and I now know I went out because I was so lonely, and that's what my friends would do. I also seemed to have loads of friends when I was out drinking, and thought people must like me better when drunk. Figuring all this out really helped me to make the decision of trying to stop my behaviour, as it really was for no good reason.

What are your friends like? Can you make arrangements to spend time with people in a setting that doesn't involve drinking? My doctor and counselor gave me tips on how not to reach the point of blackout every time I drank, but ultimately it was up to me to figure out how I could still drink but reach a safe limit. It may be a good idea for you to go cold turkey for a while if you can't stop yourself.

Main thing is to keep yourself busy, so that if you aren't going out, you aren't sitting at home alone and bored. And try and have supportive friends. Sometimes I would go out with the intention not to drink, and I was often pressured into it. Not saying I was forced to, but its hard to resist the pressure from people who don't feel comfortable around sober people as it makes them feel guilty.

Overheal

You need to get critical and ask yourself why you go out drinking, and why you keep going for another, then another, then another