People don't know what I'm really like

LegacyUser

Sorry for dragging up an older thread. Not the OP here but I came out from a similar episode not so long ago.  

Through a group I was newly involved with, I met someone and I was taken off my feet. He got what he wanted and then turned into a head wreck of hot and cold. Promising the earth, the moon, the sun and the stars but not following through on a single thing. He came back to me looking to get his hole filled and with this I copped on that the situation wasn't right. When I called him on it I was fed an excuse. The next couple of weeks I spent with my mood dropping thinking that maybe he would rectify it but nothing came. When I pressed him for an answer and some sort of closure I was ignored and blocked of facebook. 

I was left with a WTF train of thought.  A few weeks pass and then I cracked and brought my frustrations out on him with obsessive calls which he never answered but they would have been pranks anyways. Obsessive messages and emails insulting him and condemning him. That was on and off for months. It was crazily obsessive.   

I'm doing a lot better now and it took a while. Keeping away from men for now out of fear of being hurt. Also my life being busy I certainly don't need any relationship crap trinkling down into my life. 

I was strung along with what I think and 99% certain lies because he never rectified upsetting me and if what he told me was the truth well I don't believe it because he never fixed it. 
Looking back I was a notch on his belt to use and abuse by filling me with lies so that I wouldn't forget him while I was left waiting and hanging for when he wanted me again and to discard away as if I was a piece of sh1t when he was finished with me. I didn't see it at the time though. 
Then, I threw all my frustrations back in his face. It was a storm in a teacup and I drowned in that teacup. 
I have a lot to blame myself for too for the crash in things in that I was very patience and soft with him when I shouldn't have allowed things to fester. I then exploded out of nowhere but either way I didn't ask for his sh1t.
 
I'm disgusted with the way I handled things and the way I behaved. I want to apologise to him for my actions but I am unsure. It's not like he even tried to make amends with me or anything and indeed he is probably oblivious as to his part in it all. What's done is done now. 

Can I ask a question to Scarymoon, Wompa, and the last poster Please. 
Did you share mutual friends with your ex partners? If so what was their take on things, if they had any opinion at all? 
Reason I ask is because I pulled away from the group and I am unsure if I should go back and pick up my interest in it. I would like to but I fear I might be shunned which although not nice would be understandable to be honest. 
       

Ickle Magoo

As each thread in PI is for the poster that posted it, I've given you your own thread OP. :cool:

AckwelFoley

Not all men are assholes, there are lots, but not all.

Dont lose friends over him. Keep in contact with them, try to discreetly avoid over exposure to him.

Its good that you are aware that you were obsessed, that doesnt make you crazy, probably just angry.