am i the only person.............

Betty Draper

..........who is absolutely hating the run up to the wedding?

everyone keeps asking am i excited? and all i want to do in smack them upside their big fat stupid heads.

i have spent the last 2 weeks in tears, i absoutely it hate.

i love my partner to bits and cant wait to be his husband but i am hating this part.

i had a huge fallouting out with my family yesterday and now half them are not coming to the wedding.

everyone is telling i am cold and selfish and i am dragging the whole day d everyone around me down

i am so miserable but no one will listen to me, yesterday coming home from work, i was think that if i just drive at the barrier, it put an end to the problem.

i cant talk to anyone cause they just keep telling me to cop on and be happy.

so i know this is rambling but i cant think straight. i have to run out now cos friends and family need to see me and i need to get my hair done, plus i have to get home and do loads of wedding things

clint_silver

Betty Draper wrote: »

..........who is absolutely hating the run up to the wedding?

everyone keeps asking am i excited? and all i want to do in smack them upside their big fat stupid heads.

i have spent the last 2 weeks in tears, i absoutely it hate.

i love my partner to bits and cant wait to be his husband but i am hating this part.

i had a huge fallouting out with my family yesterday and now half them are not coming to the wedding.

everyone is telling i am cold and selfish and i am dragging the whole day d everyone around me down

i am so miserable but no one will listen to me, yesterday coming home from work, i was think that if i just drive at the barrier, it put an end to the problem.

i cant talk to anyone cause they just keep telling me to cop on and be happy.

so i know this is rambling but i cant think straight. i have to run out now cos friends and family need to see me and i need to get my hair done, plus i have to get home and do loads of wedding things

control it, youre letting it control you, you sound like you need a break from it, unless your wedding is tomorrow, do NOT do wedding things tonight. do NOT do family things tonight, take some time to yourself. take a long walk in a park, on a pier, drive somewhere on your own, nice and calm, clear your head.

everything will wait until tomorrow. when your head is clear you can approach things calmer. Ring the people who you think have been harrasing you say very calmly you appreciate the interest but youre feeling under huge pressure and you appreciate not asking again until the day itself. you have now taken control of it.

Gatica

It sounds like the pressure if the day has driven you to depression. It may help if you could talk to someone who is not also vested in this wedding. The Samaritans or make an appointment with a psychotherapist - it is not a weakness to need to talk to someone. It sounds like you're not feeling heard and people are not taking your feelings seriously.
I hope you find some a way to bring up your spirits again...

iguana

I'm sorry OP, if you are feeling suicidal we are not qualified to help you. My advice is that you do as Gatica suggested and seek professional help or call the Samaritans.