Poems -Adult content-

iamnotthere

to avoid confusion
eros=ancient Greek word used to describe passionate love
suki da=Japanese for general love
Káma=A word used by Buddhist's to describe sensual and sexual love. Considered usually detrimental in seeking enlightenment.
Ishq=Islamic word for divine love, as the person you love is just a reflection of God.

LOVE
1
An indecency to my Eros:
Scared of turning love into a sickness.
Without a latency
Or an incubation time
Or a line
We both cross the line
I’m hardly old so how can I afford to laugh at myself?
Without a reason other than
I have grown cold
And nervously divert,
With a black heart,
Still filled with un-answered questions
That keep us apart
2
Then suki da,
Biting ears
And any other
Overlooked areas.
Running cold fingers
On warm skin
To see who has the tickles today.
Bathing in hot waters
Finding a perfect breathing
A kama
Sugar cane
And sometimes I feel powerful
A power to hold
I could hold
Your fire
A resting desire, though,
Sometimes an angst to touch it.
3
Then ishq,
The question is not will you grow old with me but,
will you watch forests grow with me?
We can plant our own little trees
and I can offer you all
Of my essence.
I forcast a slumber
Waking to your reflection.





After the Rooms


After the rooms, a sense of decoded ritual trickles down my arm.
All else fails accept a knowledge of cold steel pressed against my skin.
I can think of better things when I cannot see them.
Things other than empty waste baskets and ironic cups of tea.
An old place where I once lived but now am alive.
An odd taste mixed with a cramp in my hands
Cant hold anything for too long.
Can’t rejoice in knowing I’m not gone, not yet.
Not to forget what I felt before this.
An awful whispering beckoning me towards my inner pestilence.





Jazz hands

He plays with
I HOPE YOU ****ING DIE
And
A long gulp of water
And crashing
And a smash
Of glass
And metal
Breathing flesh
Of the tops
Of buildings
And hyperlinks
Of hurting
Flirting with nothing
Or no one or something
Took hold of
His be and his bop
And his bounce
In a trance