Alone and Trapped and desperate

LegacyUser

Right, I wasnt going to send this for fear of getting snotty or sarcastic answers that dont help me, but Ive decided to chance it just in case. I dont suppose anything can really be done to help my situation but I am going round in circles trying to find a way out of this rut Im in and cant seem to.
I am female, late 20s, single for several years, no family except my mother, no freinds at all due to a few fall outs many years ago, and being an introverted, painfully shy person who cannot make new friends easily. I have no qualifications due to failing college. I am unemployed and live by myself and Im struggling to pay off debts.
I had planned to move to Australia but since failing college I now dont have the qualifications I would need to apply for a visa so that dream is dead. I cannot afford to repeat college either.
I am a broken, crushed person between being on my own all the time and failing college and having to give up on my dream to immigrate.
I have spent the last few years living as a recluse, cannot find a job and the last two jobs I had I was horrifically bullied in ( I am not a bright and bubbly sort--I am quiet and keep to myself and just do the work but this seems to set me up as a target). I now longer have the confidence to deal with the outside world, mix with people or even look for another job .
I only go from my flat to the shop and back again, sleep all day and look up rubbish on line all night.
I was hoping for a brand new start abroad and the fact that I am trapped in a country I hate (and I do hate living in Ireland) is killing me. In fact I am more depressed than I have ever been in my life and cannot help but think of the years I have wasted .
If anyone has any suggestions as to how to mourn the loss of a dream and accept the fact that I am going nowhere fast etc, I would appreciate it.
Otherwise, feel free to ignore as I dont see a way out anyway.

poppyseeder

Don't ever give up on your dreams,there is always another door opening where one has slammed shut:) I was where you are now,and believed nothing could change.
So I decided to change something I could control,my mindset. I devoured positive thinking books,joined positive websites,set myself small goals and didn't beat myself up if I didn't fullfill them.
Don't resign yourself to living in a place you hate,instead think of it as being a temporary glitch.I hope things improve for you but in the meantime,keep the dream alive:)

PirateShampoo

Working Holiday Visa for OZ has a cut off point of 31. You need no skills or qualifications what so ever for it. Just apply for it and it will probably be granted within 24 hours.

username123

Loads of different options for visas (not just Australia) here.

You could also consider going to another European country that you dont need a visa for.

What I do think is that the way you are feeling is not going to be fixed by a change of geography. You seem to have very low self esteem, you could be depressed (not leaving the house except to go to the shop and not socialising etc..) so you might want to talk to your GP about that?

I understand its very frustrating not having a job, but if you went to another country, you might have a job, but what else will be different? You wont magically have a circle of friends there either or suddenly have the will to interact with the world - thats something that you can work on without having to go away to do it.

I dont think you should write off 'the loss of a dream' just yet, you are young, there are many options for going away at your age, with or without qualifications, same for work, there are countries with job opportunities. You could also think about studying part time while working if you got a job elsewhere. But the bit about needing confidence to get out and about needs to be worked on by you - and not necessarily away.

Please talk to your GP anyway, the way your are feeling is very overwhelmed and your doc may be able to help.