Big work problem

LegacyUser

I'm in a sombre, grounded state at the moment which is rare for me. I've always been in trouble in the past, didn't pass exams etc.

Anyway I've taken extra stimulant medication this evening due to having an absolutely loopy last few days - more than usual. Now that I'm grounded and have had a really good conversation with my friend he has taught me about personality characteristics etc. and how we all have the power to change them.

I have serious issues with emotion I think, I get angry at people easily and depise them. I'm always right also, unless somebody really works hard to convince me otherwise. I will argue to the bone anything even if I don't believe in it fully - just because I want to believe in it. I have a cloudy head which makes it hard for me to reason decisions and think about stuff properly. So I've been going mad thinking I was just in a good mood at work the last few days, getting stuff done, shouting etc. all in the name of getting a team working together better.

My friend was telling me earlier when we were having a conversation that I'm not thinking things through properly and keep arguing silly things without thinking about them right etc. He said I was the same way yesterday. I eventually agreed with him. I needed to prove to him that I was capable of grounded reasoning so took loads of extra adhd medication...we had a long conversation, I conciously became aware of an issue I have been avoiding for a few weeks to do with work - instant blast of depression when it hit me but I needed it. When the meds wear off again though I will go back to the way I was and will forget what it feels like to be grounded now. I will think I'm alright and continue making the same mistakes over and over (while reasoning that they felt like the right thing at the time) until I land back in the same position I'm in now again.

What on earth can I do? I feel like I just cannot go back to work like this again. I know they have noticed me acting different (over the last few weeks) but more so in the last few days and I thought I was perfectly normal and just in a really good mood. Now sitting here they must think I'm crazy. I went home on a half day today because of a headache so they must think that had something to do with my mood.

I will have to ring my doctor in the morning anyway. Anything like this happen to someone here...

Rant over.....I'll be alright sure I know everything anyway (jez maybe these meds are starting to wear off)

Oryx

You say you were going to phone your doctor today, and I hope you did. We cannot advise you on your medication or your condition, that is your doctors job, they are best placed to advise you. I recommend, if you havent already done so, to get in touch with them and tell them everything you have said here.

Thread closed as it is beyond our scope.