Cry for help.

LegacyUser

Hi I'm a 21 yr old female
As I type this I'm sitting in the canteen in college. Its my 3rd day, I'm a third year and as of yet.....not a single person has said hello to me or smiled or even acknowledged my existence. I never really had many friends, especially not in college but over the past 6 months or so its gotten much much worse.

On my 18th birthday...one friend posted on my FB out of all 330
2 turned up for my party, one of which I didn't know.
and on my last birthday it was only 2 of us and I went to a strangers house party. My 2 friends became really good friends with this group of people and now don't really speak to me anymore.

Me and my bf were together for 7 years, we still live together but he broke up with me...his reason was that he isn't good in a relationship...but I suspect there was someone else.

My parents are dead, my grandparents are my only family members who speak to me. My extended family don't generally talk to me really.

I didn't really have friends in school either. Didn't go out on LC results night, had nobody to get a limo with to my debs, nobody to sit at my table

I have one close friends to go out with. She has her own group of friends though, so when she is with them, I have to stay in.
There is someone else, I thought I was close to but he won't let me into his circle of friends and even though we get on great alone if we are out at a gig say, he'll stay with his friends and sometimes has even ignored me.

I don't think I am a bad person. I have been told I'm attractive. I don't smell or act strangely i don't lie or talk about people behind their back, I'm not bitchy or mean. But everyone hates me. I don't understand why. I have acquaintances but when I ask them out they usually don't come and they don't care very much about me.If there is someone else they can spend time with they will. They call themselves my friends, but they are never there for me.
Often I'll have a close male friend but i will find out they're only talking to me cause they fancy me

I'm so sick of being alone. I'm wasting my life. I'm lonely and suicidal.I know that I am of no importance to anyone and If I died not many people would notice. I thought I was being too clingy, so I stopped asking people to go out etc...then I thought I was being to distant.
I looked up social skills on google to see what I was doing wrong, Implimented with I learned...still can't make friends.
I just want someone to be close to. I'm so sad
What can I do

Taltos

OP

As you are considering suicide we have to lock this thread.
Please refer to the following link for advice on some groups that may be able to help you.

Taltos