The Package

LegacyUser

I usually do not like to talk about stuff that involve people other than myself, online but I feel like I really need to this time.


It all started with a package that I wish I hadn't ordered if I knew I would end up in such situation.
One day, I got back from college and I found this formal note on my apartment door telling me to come collect some package. Weirdly enough, just the writing of the person made feel really strange but in a good way (like infatuated, what a joke !). I even paid attention to the signature name which I usually don't do.

So I went to collect the package and the guy who left me the notice was the one who gave me that package. I had never seen him prior that day but when I saw him, my first thought was confirmed. I was indeed infatuated (what a joke, I sound crazy). And I find this really strange considering I do not really believe in romantic feelings at all. So I'm not the type to feel this way.

Ever since I first saw that guy I've been thinking about him non-stop. I bumped into him once or twice for formal encounters before the end of school year. I haven't seen him since then considering I graduated and I'm doing my masters abroad and he apparently went for a year abroad.
And I later found out about his crazy academic background which leads me to admiring him for this. Like I wanna do the same, strange.
I don't really know much about him except his name and his academic background.

This time, I feel like there is something different. Like usually when I'm attracted to a guy it's quite sexual, but with this guy it's beyond that stage. I don't even have sensual thoughts it's way beyond that.
He's not necessarily good looking and not even my type at all ! Like we're physically polar opposites to be honest.

I don't know how to get this guy out of my head, it's been 8 months and it's driving me nuts ! And I'm not even mentioning the fact that I've been dating this other guy (for a year and a half) who happens to know him as they live in the same neighborhood (I found out few weeks after the package story).

I don't know what to do. Should I dump the other guy ? How to get him out of my head for good ? Am I mentally defective ? This dumb story is really swallowing me.

tenchi-fan

It sounds like you're living in your head. You're wasting a lot of mental effort seeing as nothing has actually happened.

You could always add him on facebook and hope it doesn't look too weird, like a few status updates and hopefully get talking on chat and see where it goes. But brace yourself for the fact it probably won't go anywhere.

LegacyUser

You're right. I'm just wasting my whole time for no apparent reason.
It's just a plain teenage crush, I'm gonna get over it eventually.
I should focus on making my relationship work instead of talking about some stranger who might be a total pig.

Thanks !