My life is hopeless

1saddude

Have you ever known someone that nobody likes? Well that's me. As far as I can remember I've been socially excluded. I've never had any kind of personal bond with anyone, all the people I know just just tolerate me to avoid an awkward moment. Asides from being unlikable in a personal sense I'm very stupid and ugly. And I mean REALLY stupid and ugly. With all the traits of being unlikable, stupid and ugly I see absolutely no future for myself. The only thing that's keeping me from committing suicide atm is the next Elder Scrolls game Skyrim, which is pretty ****ing pathetic.

I get particularly depressed if anyone says I need a girlfriend or something. There's never been a single girl that's liked me and I know there's no point in me even trying, they ALWAYS reject me and at my level of ugliness women don't care if they hurt me. They've all either laughed at me, insulted me or turned away in disgust. Besides, even if one did like me back I'm so inexperienced I'll just ruin it. I don't even know how to kiss, embarrassing as that is. I don't even want to think about how badly I'll mess up with sex. The only way I could get around that is a prostitute, but I don't wanna be ****ing no human cattle. I suppose the best I can ever hope for is awesome pills from the doctor and life time subscription to brazzers.com.

What am I supposed to do?

Ickle Magoo

Hey there you,

I'm going to tell you off now - just warning you!

Your mental health should be of paramount importance to you. Get yourself an appointment with your GP pronto. If you had a thyroid issue or were developing diabetes you would hopefully be glad of and looking for medication and professional help - depression is no different. Please make an appointment and tell your doctor how you feel, there's no shame in it and with some help you'll hopefully be able to see how loveable you actually are.

Trust me, I've been there - pick up the phone. If you need to chat to anyone or you ever feel suicidal, there are some useful contacts here.

All the very best.

LegacyUser

Just to give you some perspective, I'm currently in loving relationship with someone who a few years ago would have described himself exactly the way you have here. You never know what's coming your way. Please don't give up.

LegacyUser

Hi there OP.
I am sorry to hear you feel this way.
I just want to ask you though, what do you think is "ugly" about you?
Lots of people have these kinds of feelings about themself and are entirely wrong.
Everyone has some good points even if we can see our own.
What features about yourself do you dislike?

1saddude

Fatness, I have bushy curly hair but I'm also losing my hair in chunks so i cant just cut it, I have an extremely uneven face (1 cheek fatter, 1 eye bigger, cheek bones dont match), big ears.

I've been told I look like the child of John C Rielly and Susan Boyle. Seriously, people online have said I couldn't be as ugly as I claim to be. After seeing my picture no one disagrees.

Ickle Magoo

1saddude wrote: »

Fatness, I have bushy curly hair but I'm also losing my hair in chunks so i cant just cut it, I have an extremely uneven face (1 cheek fatter, 1 eye bigger, cheek bones dont match), big ears.

I've been told I look like the child of John C Rielly and Susan Boyle. Seriously, people online have said I couldn't be as ugly as I claim to be. After seeing my picture no one disagrees.

What advice do you want? You seem to be content with throwing the old woe is me routine and some half-hearted comedic attempt to convince us how ugly you are...perhaps give us a clue and make it clear what your aims are and we can help give advice on how best to approach those particular issues?

1saddude

Yes, but what's the point anyway? I'm still going to be hideous and I'll still have the same crap personality. Cutting my hair short will just make my bald patches more obvious. If I go bald it will still be obvious when hair grows back in all but a few spots.

1saddude

Ickle Magoo wrote: »

What advice do you want? You seem to be content with throwing the old woe is me routine and some half-hearted comedic attempt to convince us how ugly you are...perhaps give us a clue and make it clear what your aims are and we can help give advice on how best to approach those particular issues?

I want to know if life is worth it when you have nothing good going on for you, nobody cares about you and everything past & present just reenforces all ****ty beliefs.

Ickle Magoo

How can anyone else possibly convince you that your life has meaning? You need to make an appointment with your GP because if you can't answer the question as to whether life is worth it then you need more help than can be offered here.

All the best.

Columc

1saddude wrote: »

I want to know if life is worth it when you have nothing good going on for you, nobody cares about you and everything past & present just reenforces all ****ty beliefs.

Go travelling, move away, go to a different city, if you have no ties at the moment then just go out and explore.

if you dont like your weight - go training and lose it
if you dont like your hair, change it.
those features of your face would be due to fat being on one side, look up to the other point.

A change in your mindset is what you need.

There is noting else we can say to you, you dismiss our comments saying its no point.

Talk to people about it then, Talk to parents, friends, help lines just to get a different perspective of it.

Maple

OP, nobody here is qualified to give you medical advice.

Please visit your GP to discuss your options and your fears regarding your mental health.

All the best,

Maple