More of a rant than anything

seashells24

life is ****!!! some may think i have it all going for me, 23 and healthly..no debts and no kids..
well hopefully i aint pregnat cause that would just make things a hole lot worse!!
So as it stands, heading to Austrialia in less than 5 weeks and counting...Trip of a life time? I think not!!
Whats making me so unhappy? There is so many people out there who are less fortunate than me!
What is it one wants out of life..Money? a Family? Happiness? LOVE? is it to much to ask for all of the above....
Love.. i dont think iv ever had someone really love me, so maybe thats why i crave it so much.
My father says you have to love yourself first..but i do, Im a nice person and would do anything for most.
So why do i always get it so wrong when it comes to relationships?
After 4 years living in the city, I moved home to the country aGAIN and after 2 weeks, after my friends telling me to
just have some me time, i met someone.
Started out so well, i was caustion at first, afraid to let my gaurd down for fear of getting my heart broken again
yet again.2 months later..how things have changed, im here again. After speaking to each other every day, for hours,
mostly via Facebook, i havent heard from him in days, well a couple of texts last night, him apologising for not being
in contact with me but is so busy with uniwork and he is so stressed out, so we chatted for a while over texts so i
suggest maybe next week i organise a destress night for him...no reply!!
last time i seen him was a week ago, and that night couldnt of been more perfect or beautiful and we talked about
how we would really make our last few weeks together great. So what has changed, i sent him a text the next day telling
him i thought he was amazing and i loved spending time with him? Is that a bad text to recieve?
I dont wanna leave for Aus knowing that the last two months with him were actually about sex, he says hes not like that,
so whats going on? as i explained to a family member if he doesnt want to see me any more why not just say imstead of
leaving me wondering Why do i always fall in Love and get dumped!
This is more of a rant then looking for advice! but if anyone wants to give there 2 cents worth, fire ahead!!:eek:

LegacyUser

Hey I don't know how much good this will be but here goes... I'm also 23 yrs old and my bf left for australia last year. You havent said how long you are going for but I'm assuming at least a year? Anyways my fella was goin for a year and it tore me apart to say goodbye. I felt like I needed a lot of time with him before he left whereas he said he felt like it was making it harder. Because he would get used to having me around so much and then we'd have to say goodbye. Anyways, a year later we are still together and going strong.

Obviously I don't know whats going through your boyfriends head but if it is the case that you are leaving for a long time bear in mind that he could be confused, upset or having second thoughts? I've found when my bf gets upset or has something bothering him he withdraws to deal with it by himself. Although he could genuinely be stressed from work?

Like I said I don't know your relationship but try to chill out and look forward to your travels, you will love australia I'm sure. Good luck!

Wompa1

Hey OP,

Could be him holding back as he knows you are going to Australia. If things went perfect the other night and he thought so to it might have tripped a switch in his head to pull back rather than get completely hurt by you leaving. If I was in his shoes I'd think he'd have more to lose out of this as you'll have a new life ahead of you while he'll be here alone.

On the other stuff. I'm 26, making very good money, have a nice car, nice apartment, beautiful girlfriend. I should be happy with my lot but I too have had my heart broken numerous times and don't really derive pleasure from wealth and material goods. I may be depressed but have not been diagnosed, I like you plan to try and branch out and see some of the world and plan to move and work in America in a few months time. If that doesn't bring me happiness I'm not sure what I can do! You are not alone!