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frustrated99

Hi Everyone,

I'm not sure what this is but It sounds like Pure O. A couple of years ago something bad happened me and since then i've been suffering with panic attacks. My panic attacks have seemed to escalated into intrusive thoughts. The intrusive thoughts are frustrating and upsetting but i was beginning to handle them and all of a sudden a year ago I started to get extreme self doubt. An example is this. If something bad happens me or i feel depressed or if i'm just alone in my room etc. my immediate thought is 'Swallow a battery' or 'Swallow bleach' etc. You get the jest. if i am angr or annoyed my thoughts jump to swallwing things. This is annoying and frustrating but now after I get the thought I question if i have done it and start to believe i have when i haven't. So if i think 'Swallow a battery' Then i'll spend the day/week/month convinced i did swallow a battery and convinced i'm a walking time bomb waiting to explode. I'm scared all the time that i will swallow a battery. I don't want to be alone and it's affecting my life. Why do i doubt myself? I convinced myself i've swallowed one. Has anyone got the same issue?

robman60

It seems as if what happened a few years ago was very serious. At the time, did you disclose the details of what happened to anyone, or have you kept them bottled up inside you all this time?

It's never good to feel as if your on your own, and telling someone you trust about what happened is always a way to alleviate the sadness you feel.

What you say further down actually reminds me of my own situation (not as much anymore). I couldn't really tell if things were fully real or if they were fabricated by my mind and it can cause quite a bit of distress. I really think this stems from a distressing event in your life (probably the one you mention) and it can be really damaging.

The best think you can do is tell someone about how you're feeling, and after that, approaching a doctor might seem easier. If your a teen there's a good chance these feelings will become less overwhelming with time.


I really wish you all the best. Isolation is a really damaging emotion and I have days where I feel as if I've got nothing except the four walls around me. If you want to PM me, feel free to.

lace

I understand completely where you're coming from, OP, and it does sound like Pure-O. However, members on boards aren't able to advise you on medical issues so I'd suggest talking about this with your GP, who will be able to make a diagnosis or refer you on for diagnosis and treatment. Members on boards can, however, provide understanding and support and let you know you're not alone in this. I understand all too well what intrusive thoughts feel like and I know the pain and confusion they bring. It's like a constant struggle between the rational person you are and the completely irrational thoughts that you just can't stop. They can be so distressing and really disruptive and also difficult to explain to family and friends. Your doctor will probably be able to suggest techniques to help combat the level of anxiety and distress the thoughts cause and these will really help to ease the pressure.

Good Luck!

Silverfish

Hi Op, we cannot offer you medical advice or a diagnosis on this site.


Please go to your GP if you wish to discuss your concerns.