Bloody Confused.

NotYetKatie

At one stage I felt like I could accept being transgender, but now I'm not so sure. It's kinda weird, anytime I think about it,I think "God, I'd love to be a woman." But I realised, I'm happy as a guy. I love CDing and feeling like a woman and acting feminine. I love dresses, cosmetics, dancing and alot of other things people would expect of me.

I don't act feminine when I appear male, but I don't exactly mind it. In fact I like the aspects of being a guy too, Those boisterous nights out, programming, music production (I know they're not isolated to males, they feel masculine.)
I'm comfortable in my shoes.

But, sometimes I think I tell myself that because I'm afraid of coming out, being laughed at and having to start again. I could never CD in Public just to feel feminine, I'd be too shy and embarrassed, so I take advantage of fancy dress. I sometimes imagine myself as a woman in the future and sometimes a man too. It's wrecking my head! Why can't I settle on one?!?

Links234

First off, relax.

Don't worry, I probably don't know any transgender person who hasn't had these kinds of doubts. Doubts are good, they're healthy, and it's good to air them, get it out and clear your head. Fears can be well founded, and again, I don't know of any transgender person who isn't afraid of coming out, and afraid of how people might react. It's fairly normal.

There can be a lot of pressure on us not to transition, and it can be very hard to go ahead with it for a lot of people. And it can be very easy to be paralyzed by fear, especially early on. Relax, give it time, and don't feel that you have to do anything yet. When the time comes, do what makes sense to you.

hare05

Maybe you're genderqueer? There's no requirement to settle anywhere!

Check out minorqback on YouTube, she's trans but is still living the same life as before transitioning, with 'manly' things like soccer and snowboarding.