I miss her

LegacyUser

Half just getting this off my chest tbh. Myself and the ex are broken up just over a month, oth early 20s, madly in love with each other, the thing is we really shouldn't of broken up.

Through misinterpreted signals, things in her life getting crazy intense and stressful and me becoming very insecure thinking we were about to break up on the day we broke up she wasn't expecting to even have a talk about us, which makes it harder to take, but we did and we were left with no choice really but to end things.

I was doing really well about the whole thing, and then a couple Saturdays ago going out to a friends thing in a pub I frequent quite often (it's known as my local almost and it's weird if I'm not there during the weekend) and friend who I felt out with ended up bringing the ex there, imo for her own selfish reasons. The most awkward night I've ever spent, I chained smoked the entire time. My ex shouldn't be drinking as she's not well atm, but it's what she does when she can't handle emotionally stressful situations like that (when there's booze, she'll drink, like most would).

She brought me outside to talk, wanted to kiss me, told me she really missed me. I didn't kiss her because I knew it wasn't fair, she was drunk and it'd make things so messy. We're back inside and a song comes on, she drags me to the dancefloor (when I say dragged, I did miss just having her close so of course I went) we just ended up having this hug hug for like 10 minutes, she told me she missed me so much and really loved me, kept on kissing me on my neck (cause I wouldn't drop my face), then she passed out in my arms.

Brought her back to the tables and sat her down, just holding her (which tbh felt amazing, I missed holding her so much) trying to keep her awake and getting some water down her. She continued to tell me she loved me etc, it was so hard to listen to. She kept on ringing and txting me that night till she got home and fell asleep.

The next day she didn't remember a thing, just saw the texts and apologised, she was mortified, especially with a couple of details I told her about. We agreed not to talk until after exams are finished, gonna meet up then for a coffee or something.

We both love each other and really miss each other still, and I can't stop thinking about her, and this wait is driving me mad. I know she needs time and space, but I just wanna see her, hug her, I just miss her a lot. I've actually turned girls away when they try to hit on me (which has never happened before, girls hitting on me like) just in case there's a chance we could get back together because that could ruin any chance of it.

gypsy_rose

I know it's really hard when you've broken up with someone and then end up having to hang out with them, but I have to ask here, were they really good reasons for breaking up? She may have been really drunk and you were probably a bit too, but if you miss her so much maybe you shouldn't have broken up after all? Obviously I don't know your circumstances, but maybe you should both at least reconsider. The wait is probably driving her mad too, in my experience it's better to at least clear the air straight away instead of waiting and wondering, at least then you can get on with your life.
Good luck with everything

LegacyUser

We ended up breaking up just because there were little things that I thought needed to be discussed about the relationship, small little things that wern't really that big a deal.

A few days after we broke up we talked about everything and decided not to get back together but to remain friends. That day got a bit rough on me after and we fought, but we cleared it up when giving each other our stuff back and then decided not to talk until exams n all were over.

The Saturday when she was hammered just brought everything up again, up to that I was ready to move on but her telling me she still loved me and missed me just brought everything right back to my mind again. She said she'd talk stuff out but I knew she wasn't able for it so I told her not to worry about it and we'll talk after exams.

That's not for another month. I broke and txt her tonight that I missed her. The wait will drive me mad.

Think the worst part is knowing that that "mutual friend" will be filling her head full of crap about me and what we had.