Walk with me..

wallplugsocket

When I first joined boards my first post mentioned the starting of a blog. I asked the mods and a week later I got the go ahead. But I never knew what way to start it so it went on the long finger.

But here I am. In the not so distant future I am going to my first ftm night thanks to the most epic man I know. But first a little about me.

I'm in my mid 20's, out as a lesbian since I was 15/16. From about 19 I knew exacty who I wanted to be but pushed it way down and denied it. I went to College at 17, moving quite far from home. But didn't join the lgbt soc for fear of the giant T.

College finished up and i landed in Dublin. Thankfully then you could walk into a Job. The huge downside was I knew absolutely nobody. My friend count was 0
So I spent hours online on various forums and eventually plucked the courage to tag along to a meet. Where I met a ton of people who have become the closest thing since family. Including the epic man I mentioned earlier.

A friendship with a woman I met developed into a relationship. A relationship that I know anybody would be jealous of. And for months I was so happy. Until the real me started to eat away at me. I came out as Tiernan.

The relationship ended with me resulting in gaining a best friend.

Not too long from now I'll be in a room with 15 guys all like me.

So here I am, on the verge of what will probably be one of the most important nights of my life. And honestly?


I'm terrified.

deirdre_dub

TiernanJ wrote: »

Not too long from now I'll be in a room with 15 guys all like me.

So here I am, on the verge of what will probably be one of the most important nights of my life. And honestly?


I'm terrified.

So you are going to the F2M social event in Dublin?

It has been my great privilege to meet a number of the guys that you will be meeting, and they are just really really great guys. You'll be fine.

Yes, it could be one of the most important nights of your life. I suspect it'll also be the best night of your life.

As for the fear - we've all been terrified, so don't worry, and have a fantastic night!

Meesared

What are you planning to do?

Also good luck!

rainbow kirby

Good luck, and have fun

*hugs*

wallplugsocket

Currently watching a giant tv screen advertising new films and am making up the words coz it has no sound...


In the bigger picture of what I intend to do, one or two counsellor visits to get my head around other things and then off to Kelly to start the most epic journey ever

deirdre_dub

TiernanJ wrote: »

and then off to Kelly to start the most epic journey ever

OMG you got that right!

Wishing you all the very best on that journey.

xxx

newmug

TiernanJ wrote: »

I'm in my mid 20's, out as a lesbian since I was 15/16. From about 19 I knew exacty who I wanted to be but pushed it way down and denied it. I went to College at 17, moving quite far from home. But didn't join the lgbt soc for fear of the giant T.

Absolutely fair play to you. Its possible in life to feel afraid, but inside be really brave. You are a shining example of this.

But please, please, please, pardon my ignorance, but whats the giant T?

Links234

newmug wrote: »

But please, please, please, pardon my ignorance, but whats the giant T?

I'm guessing Transgender, the T in LGBT

Rick_

Transgender, perhaps, as in 'Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender'?

Being transgendered, he was maybe afraid of either meeting other transgendered people or identifying himself publically as transgendered, hence why "the giant T" was frightening him? I dunno.

Meesared

It is scary no doubt! i wish i could speed up my process

Azure_sky

Ah, so you're F2M. Cool, it's nice to see more of you guys around.:)

wallplugsocket

Good christ if I tried to blog about last night and how amazing it was my head would explode. I can only function enough to type this much.

deirdre_dub

TiernanJ wrote: »

Good christ if I tried to blog about last night and how amazing it was my head would explode. I can only function enough to type this much.

I'm so so so happy for you!!!

I hope you do blog about it when you've defused your head! :pac:

littlehedgehog

Also delighted for you, and can't wait to read about how the meet went for you! ( )
So proud of you keeping a blog - that's pretty damn epic

wallplugsocket

*stumbles out of daydream*


So, Friday night was great

I met some really cool guys, and we hooked up with the WAGS after was really deadly just being out and hearing peoples stories and getting to know new folk!
What was most epic was all night being refered to as the right gender and name, also having the confidence to use the gents coz i really felt on top of the world

Links234

great to hear it Teirnan

bitter_lemon

hi teirnan

i'm really delighted you had a great time and felt so confident. great to hear from a ftm perspective.

also great to hear that there is a ftm social event in dublin.

deirdre_dub

bitter_lemon wrote: »

also great to hear that there is a ftm social event in dublin.

Keep an eye on http://twitter.com/TENI_Tweets for information on the next one. The last one was also publicised by the Cork Trans web site -

http://corktrans.webs.com/irishtgroups.htm

IMO it's worth getting a facebook account just to keep in touch with these sorts of things that are happening.

bitter_lemon

deirdre_dub wrote: »

Keep an eye on http://twitter.com/TENI_Tweets for information on the next one. The last one was also publicised by the Cork Trans web site -

http://corktrans.webs.com/irishtgroups.htm

IMO it's worth getting a facebook account just to keep in touch with these sorts of things that are happening.

thanks very much
i don't have facebook. i don't really want one. yes i know i'm probably the only one in the world without one! but for good reason.

i will check out the links. appreciate it.

wallplugsocket

Good god what a few weeks of dying/death, self realisation, realising the realisation was alcohol enduced, followed by sobering thoughts that were in fact less coherent than my drunken ones!

Anyway, another ftm meet wahey!