Am I depressed

LegacyUser

Hello all, where to even start, it's not something I've ever mentioned to anyone or even hinted at, I'm only really beginning to come to terms with it myself. I'm not sure what exactly I'm looking for by posting here, confirmation of my own thoughts I suppose. I'm in my mid 20s and basically for the as far back as is worth remembering (4-5 years at least), I have had very little passion or interest in anything, even sport which was my life growing up. Particularly lost interest in people and socialising, which is what worries me the most, I just tend to go through the motions at this stage, I hate feeling that I can't have a decent conversation or that I bring the mood down. I find the biggest thing holding me back is just lack of genuine interest in people and topics. I also find that I have a lock of motivation and energy to do almost anything, I'm at college at the minute and I have to admit it has been good for me but i've not seen the changes I've envisaged. Other problems include me being slightly irritable to those around, usually only family though and I can't get a decent nights sleep to save my life. I recieve very little pleasure in anything in life, find that I have to fake a lot of enthusiasm. I feel as if I have a 'cloudy mind' which affects how I process information and and remember it, basically I have a hard time concentrating, which again affects conversations, I feel I can't really get a grip of whats being said and how I might reply to it, rather I just think about what I can ask next to keep the conversation going.

I admit I do have good days, where I'm full of energy and enjoy speaking to people but the general tendancy seems to be the above. A lot of people have drifted in and out of my life over the years and it's been predominantly because I have let them. They'd make the effort to try and keep in touch but I'd usually end up making an excuse to not meet them.

Again, these are not rules but just general tendancies. As I said earlier, I have a fair idea of what is wrong with me, I'm just looking for confirmation more than anything, and whether help actually 'helps' for want of a better word. I think the biggest issue for me is lack of energy and constantly being tired, I find that when I am full of energy I feel a lot happier and act it. Thanks for reading and apologies for the paragraphs, or lack there of.

Zaph

I'm afraid we we don't allow online diagnoses here on Boards. You really need to speak to your GP as they'll actually be qualified to make a diagnosis, unlike anybody here, however knowledgeable or well-meaning they may be.