What the hell is wrong with me?

LegacyUser

Hi, Im typing this as I feel almost physically sick from a combination of guilt and nerves and uncomfort.

Im currently unemployed, but am trained up in a certain type of job, while I passed through the training ok, I was never sure of myself, I was often nervous doing the work, and I was afraid of messing up. Without sounding cocky, I think I am quite an intelligent person, but my nerves, lack of confidence and sometimes lack of motivation hold me back from being succesful.

I have a degree, I have this other skill that Im trained up in, and I was recently offered a job in it and I cant take it (only for 2 months btw). I dont know why, Im a bag of nerves thinking about it, im thinking all sorts of things like 'i dont have a clue what im doing' etc. The guy is waiting for my response and I just cant bring myself to accepting it, he heard of my through someone else.

I am not lazy, if someone told me they'd give me 300 quid for moving blocks for a week id jump at it. Im seriously underachieving due to nerves etc. Even after my degree I didnt pursue that career cause I "hated" it, the truth is id love to have been in that career now that I look back.

Is there anyone else out there like this? Im sick of caring what people think, i can project a very casual 'good laugh' image but once I get nervous, im finished, shaky hands, awkward,stressed.

Thanks for reading I had to get it out.

GreenFaery

The thing to remember is that you're not the only one feeling this way. I have some major problems with nerves.

Perhaps you could talk to someone about this just to make sure there is no underlying cause.

Sorry if that wasn't much help!

Penny Lane

You're getting in your own way OP and the only person who can fix that is you. Usually that kind of self-sabbotage is down to lack of confidence. I'd suggest coaching, counselling or hypnotherapy to get to the root of the problem and start living. It's like you're afraid of success.