Feel completely detatched and questioning sanity.

LegacyUser

Over the past while I've been seriously questioning my sanity. There isnt a day that goes by that I don't think that I could be insane, or have something wrong with me. I just feel completely detatched from everything. Everything seems to happen "externally". As in there is a wall between me conciously and everything I sense. I always find it hard to express how I am actually feeling.

I rarely feel happiness or sadness anymore. Everythings just completely boring and dull. Its a sadness of sorts, but I don't feel the actual emotional feeling, just the concept, with a feeling of neutrality. I just don't seem to find the points in doing anything anymore.

Some days I'll wake up, and I feel connected again, I feel energised and I can focus. It reminds me that there is good to be looked forward to. But most of the time I'm completely dazed and lost, can't concentrate on anything (which is really affecting my school work).

Everything just feels strange. I want to feel the way I did a year ago, when I never felt any of this. I'm starting to wonder if everything has always been this way and I've just imagined it different, or if I just didnt notice it til now, but I honestly feel like somethings changed. It might just be the creeping feeling in the back of my head that I think somethings wrong, and I'm simply being a hypochondriac. That's what I always dismiss it as, but it never goes away. I've never said anything like this out loud, but its really been bothering me, and I can feel myself drifting further away.

Bit of a cookie-cutter reply here, but you should see a doctor. Sounds to me like it could be depression.
Your gp will give you a proper diagnosis and will help you to start getting better

godanicus

Jeez, thought i was reading myself there for a minute. Listen, go to your gp m8, i have been like this for years, made it worse by not seeing my gp, he knew exactally what was wrong.

Yours will too. They are only too happy to help you, and he wont say a word about it.
Its a "MANS THING" to ignore it, and hope it goes away....... But it doesnt.
It festers somewhere in the back of your head and before you know it, its coming out in ways that frustrate you.

Get it Sorted by going and having a chat with your GP and live life to the full after that.
Hope all works out, and let us know how your getting on.

Kevo

I can empathize with you. I didn't question my sanity but I felt similar to what you described.

For a long time I had absolutely no joy in my life. After a long spell of depression and anxiety, everything became neutral. Previously, I had worried over the same things again and again until I numbed to them. Unfortunately, my ability to enjoy life faded with them. I no longer knew what it was to enjoy something. I would listen to music which I used to love and I would feel nothing. Same goes for just about everything else. This lasted a long time and I've only recently dealt with it properly.

I went to my GP when I was in 1st year of college and was prescribed anti depressants. They helped a bit but I didn't keep them up. 6 months ago and almost 4 years later and several episodes of anxiety/depression (but mostly just apathy and mild sadness), I decided to go back to my GP and long story short I am starting to feel better.

I recommend that you go to your doctor. They can refer you to a specialist or they may just treat you themselves. I recommend asking to see a specialist as they can deal with long term problems rather than just prescribing medication when you are feeling down without addressing the actual problem.