depressed re health problems

LegacyUser

I am not looking for medical advice and request anyone does not give it so this will net be in breach of the charter

I am depressed cos I have health problems, none very serious but which warrant doctors visits and medication. I posted before re pains.I also have fatigue and on med for depression. I have stomach problems because the pain med causes constipation and have to have another med for that.Plus a med now and then for heart burn. Only take when need. I also have to take a med now and then for a nettle rash.Only take when need

None are serious. When the swine flu jab was around the doctor said i did not need it as Idid not have a chronic illness

But the fatigue stops me working. I am looking for a part time job and can only do FAS CE because I need the med card. Otherwise I would be working for the meds and would end up with less.

Just had another round of bloods and all are normal except slightly low white cell count that doctor does not seem to think anything of.

I feel depressed when i go to pharmacy and have this big long list of drugs for someone 47. And I feel depressed/lazy when others are working and i am not. When I was young I always worked and got really ill at one stage because i would not rest when I needed to.When i turn on the news and i am still in bed at say, 11 am,as i was today because i have a stomach bug, i feel lazy in comparison with the guy on RTE. I need rest and feel guilty for having it

It gets me down when the pharmacy see all the meds i take and gain from them and then go on with their false friendship cos they want the business. I could change or go to a different one each time but this one is convenient in that i can get a 'loan' of meds if I run out and cannot get to doc.

On the plus side I have a lovely house and nice car, new computer and am not in dire need though on disability. I have savings. But I do not have GF and wonder who would want a chemical factory like me. I like someone but she is healthy and I would not want her to know my illnesses which though not serious get me down

Also because of depression i prefer to be isolated from people.

LegacyUser

Hi op,
I just want to let you know that you're not alone in feeling like this, have had bad health and it's only in recovery that I'm coming to terms with it but is slowly dragging me down, had therapy which helped a bit, sometimes I feel elated but but inside I'm a wreck..have fatigue too.. found forums on the condition have helped me, it's good to know that there's others who understand, hope you're feeling better soon:)being sick can be a lonely experience sometimes....

AngryBadger

Sounds like your depression is what's causing you to be miserable OP, obviously the symptoms of whatever has you on meds are going to wear, but are you seeing a professional about the depression?

You mention depression several times in your post, you're on meds for it, and what you describe sounds like the kind of listlessness that a lot of people experience when suffering from depression.

If you're not seeing someone about it already I'd strongly recommend it, I'd also suggest that if you don't already have some sort of activities to occupy your mind during the day depression will set in. If you're not already pursuing some interest or other I'd suggest finding one your illness won't prevent you getting stuck into and giving it holly!

i-digress

You're not alone. I'm 23 and am have fatigue, on meds for that, depression and stomach problems, plus painkillers and tablets for panic attacks. I've been told that this will probably never go, I've a 2% chance of recovery.

It's really hard dealing with being sick all the time. But plenty of people find partners while they're sick. Would it bother you if you met someone and they had a long term condition? Probably not.

Feeling lazy is the worst thing. But remember that you're not. Commend yourself for everything positive you do. Sometimes it can take me two hours to stack the dishwasher, I get so bad I need to do it in stages. But recognise bad days for what they are and pat yourself on the back for every positive thing you do.

I was so bad at one stage that I wouldn't go to the corner shop, I was afraid to talk to the person behind the counter. I'm much better now.

Have you anyone you can talk to? Would you maybe consider going to a support group?