deep freeze

flirtysomething

I have an ongoing problem with depression: it bubbles up every few months, manifesting itself in crying jags, lowered self-esteem, self-imposed social isolation.
Right now, I seem to be going through a new form of the condition where I feel absolutely nothing. I'm experiencing a lot of the familiar disenchantment with friends, doubts about my work, pointless anger at perceived slights, vague dissatisfaction with my life but my overall response is just... 'meh'.
I'm afraid of reaching the point where life becomes appalling again, and the crying starts once more. I know I should get out there and join a club or do voluntary work or something, but my self-esteem is so low that I really cannot face the prospect of trying to engage with strangers who will meet my depressed self...
Before I started seeing a counsellor, I would have gone out and bought something new which I didn't need. I'm heading out now for a workout, but I know that will raise my spirits only slightly... Anybody got any ideas on how to dig myself out of this feeling of nothing?

Go to your GP and counselling asap.
Some things like this you just need help on. If you were ill physically you'd go - same thing for depression.