Do I move on or what?

LegacyUser

Hi all!!

Ah tbh I don't know where to start or what I actually want to say but I'll give it a go anyway !

This last while I feel like I have no friends, no good friends, and I don't know why! I used to be in a sort of threeway friendship with 2 other girls, but one of them has gone away to study and I sometimes feel that the other girl, who I was very good friends with has kind of become better friends with the other one than I am and she's tending to leave me out of her life altogether now even though we are the only two at home!
I dont know, we just knid of drifted apart, for a while I text her often to see how she was and stuff, but it always ended in her having to do something, oh I gotta go clean my room or something trivial like that and the only time she'll text me is when she wants to know something or wants some reassurance.

Its kind of hard to describe how I feel, we used to be so close, the 3 of us, and i feel so sad when I see they have the same Facebook profile pic of the two of them, or they'll write on one another's walls saying they miss each other, whereas when I do that its unreciprocated... We still meet up when our other friend comes home but I feel like she's what's holding us together.

Recently my friend thats at home visited my friend thats away. I was supposed to go but I couldn't afford it, The other girl has had a weekend job all year and a full time job for summer and I have no source of income whatsoever, I depend completely on my father, but she didn't seem to understand that I couldnt go, it just made me feel like the worst friend in the world!

I have other friends then who will talk to me the odd time too, but if I want to talk to someone I'll always be the first to text, unless the other person wants to know something! I'm not the person people text about going out on a saturday night, if I want to go out I have to text half the country to find out where to go... I guess I just honestly feel like not one of those friends would miss me if I wasn't there!

I'm lucky I have my boyfriend, i can talk to him about how I'm feeling, if I'm broke he'll do something for me to cheer me up and make me forget money troubles, he's great but I'm missing that girl friend I can trust and talk to and go out with, and it really hurts, I'm just so lonely ! On top of it allI've had a very rough few years family wise and stuff is rising to the surface once again and if I dont offload the stress somehow i'll explode, but my boyfriend shouldn't have to constantly bare the brunt of this!

I don't know what kind of reply I'm even looking for here! There's so much more to right but this is an essay as is so I'll leave it for now.. Thanks for reading, I'll be happy to answer any questions!

LegacyUser

Hi.
This has often happened to me too - growing apart from friends etc and it is very hurtful when it happens. I guess the best thing is to try get out there and meet some new friends. Just to let you know the Ladies Lounge often have meet-ups. I don't know what part of the country you're in but check it out. You will need to get access to the private meet-up forum though if you wish to do so. I find it very hard too to meet new friends - you can't exactly go up and 'pull' a friend can you?! I hope this helps in some way.