I don't care about anything.

LegacyUser

I suppose making this post contradicts what I'm saying but I'd like to hear what people think.
I have a reasonable amount of casual friends but no good/close ones. Like the title says I just don't care what other people have to say. I just happen to find most small talk to be boring, I can't muster the energy or compassion to give a **** about someone else's job, kids, day. I don't care enough to tell anyone anything about my life. You'd never know this to talk to me, I'm not shy, never have awkward silences and generally very good at pointless conversation. I don't shy away from social situations but don't seek them out.
I have hobbies which I kind of enjoy but if they disappeared it wouldn't bother me.

One thing that always used to get a response from me was bad drivers, but now if I get cut off or whatever......nothing. I used to drive fastish like most young males, now I just pot along at 50mph, maybe it (slowing down) comes with maturity but I think its just pure apathy.

Last Christmas a car was overturned in a ditch near my house, my mother said "I hope no-one is hurt" my instinctive reply was "why?" of course I said something normal.

I don't think i'm depressed, I don't get sad (or happy) or down. I'm not going to kill myself, although I have considered it (from a realistic weigh up my options viewpoint, not a fml life sucks, fighting suicidal tendencies way). When on a plane I've taught about how I'd react if it was 100% going to crash and kill everyone, I think I'd be relieved.

I don't like getting drunk, maybe once a month I like to get really really high (Barely able to think), I've no urge to do anything stronger.

Nulty

I'd say you need something that makes you feel alive. A passion of somesort. I have no idea if there is ANYTHING that you will not feel indifferent towards but that ought to be your mission. With out something to feel for your basically just existing, Thats pretty much a waste. Find something that satisfies you - challenge yourself or something.

Have you no pride also? normally pride drives people to prevail and overcome things like this. obviously there is no inner urge to succeed at anything. I'd question the fundamantals of what makes you feel alive and then if nothing comes of it - ask for pro help. Someone elses experiences might help you resolve your problem

Good luck

vonnie10

It does sound like you may be suffering from depression. I know you said you don't feel sad but from what you described you sound very apathetic about life in general which can indicate depression. You need to get out a little more with friends and reach out and connect with people cos when you do connect with people you will care about their lives just as they will care about yours. I felt the same a while back although not as intensely as the way you have described and it really helped me to get involved and do some volunteering. It really made me feel good to watch the work i had done benefit other people and i got a real buzz out of it. Hope i don't sound like a do-gooder cos i did it for selfish reasons really to make myself feel better and to give myself an outlet. You don't have to do anything like that but reaching out to people will help