Flat lining............

LegacyUser

I don`t know what to do. I feel numb. I don`t want to be this person with this small life, I want to feel alive. I keep listening to stirring music just to feel .... something. Is that why everyone else listens to music, I always wondered? Is this a stage of maturity, is it normal, am I just delayed going through it?

Everything feels inevitable and boring, I know I could change everything but that feels inevitable and boring too. I`m going to counselling - its not helping. I`m going further down and feel like I`m flat lining. Hate going through the motions, never wanted to be that person. Feel like a volcano looking to care enough about anything to explod into life.

Anyone felt like this, found a way of dealing?

cherryred

i guess i kind of know how you feel. recently i feel bored with the everyday, watching television, the internet, just coming home at the end of the day and it the same old. i can't sit still but i can't think of anything to do that would satisfy me.

at the end of the day though i know that its my anxiety thats making me feel like this. keep talking to counselor or ask if they can suggest another form of therapy. also i think its really important to enjoy the small things, and ALLOW yourself to enjoy them. There was this project on Oprah where you had to write down 5 things a day that you're thankful for, people were standing up reading out really profound things, at the end Oprah said "wow that's amazing i just wrote down yogurt". Happy people find joy in mundane things because they're not ashamed or feel guilty about it.

I would also reccommend to keep talking to your friends and family. Take action and plan to do things with them, a trip to the seaside/a nice lunch out/going somewhere new to watch the football.

deadpoet

I felt like this for years on and off, the longest bout being the most recent which lasted four years. The only thing that ever helped me was anti-depressants - Cymbalta, specifically. Turned out it was a symptom of chronic depression called "depersonalisation".

Nevyn

deadpoet We don't offer medical diagnoises on this forum nor do we encourage people to go google conditions.

deadpoet

I didnt diagnose, but as for the google part I was unaware of this. My apologies.

StormWarrior

I've felt like this on numerous occassions throughout my life, and it always got to the point where I had to do something. So 3 times I quit my job/studying, packed up and just went abroad. The first time I decided my whole life was crap and had to change, so I quit my job, dumped my boyfriend and got a job as an au pair abroad, I went away and had such a fun time that I'll remember it forever. A few years later I was at university and hated my course and hated where I lived, so again I packed it in and went to a different country as an au pair. The final time I packed everything in, and went on a spur of the moment holiday to India with the remainder of my student loan. Of course doing stuff like this doesn't solve your situation long term but it gets you out of a rut and forces you to change things and see that life can be fun.