tired of fighting

LegacyUser

i feel very stressed and a bit depressed today.

i am always trying to be positive. but just very tired to try now.

bad things keep coming.

in these 2 years, i have just had enough of bad things!!! never stable. every time i think i can stable a bit, things happened: bad relationships, lost jobs, dad passed away, and lost job again. have been moved 6 times in 2 years, assignments coming, huge college fee...

i know i know i am already lucky as i have friends and family and i have jobs to lost... ah, just too much just too much in these two years.

when my dad passed away, i was not there. i could not hear his last word.

i thought it would be the end of my bad times. i thought the worst has already happened, something nice should be coming...

but bad things just keep on coming.

ah, too tired of fighting now.

blond45

i feel your pain, we have being having **** year aswell. it would take me weeks to go true it all to tell you. man oh man death is a bad one , im so sorry bout your dad, both mt parents are dead, they never seen my two boys , (6 and 12). every day i miss them thinking and wishing to know what they thought of their grand kids,,but what ive found is as you say is you have friends to chat to, it feels good to tell some one whats on your mind. now you have taken another step as in going on boards.ie..hope you will get a few post to help you.

C_Dawg

Keep the chin up buttie. You have to fight back against the hard feelings. I know it's easier said then done but leaving these things stress you out and upsetting you will not help ya in the long run.

blond45

how are you today can i call you 'the edge'? any how hope things are ok with you.

LegacyUser

i had a good cried when i read u guys msgs here last night. felt much better after the cry.

and worked a bit on assignment. and listened to my landlord singing karaoke and fell sleep.

and started busy messy day again with the nice weather.

tks u guys.

C_Dawg

Hey "On the edge"

So glad to hear you felt a bit better after the cry, tis good to let it all out once and a while.

Sounds like you need to treat yourself a little this weekend: pig out on a pizza & watch a movie, get nails done if you're a girl, go for a nice walk if you're active etc. Do something you really enjoy.

blond45

the sun is suposed to shine this weekend so plenty smilley faces . what i do when im really peed of is go on line on boards ,ie and go through the heaps of stuff thats posted on the social thread and motors, or watch the comedy channels. mash, frasier, some times it works. but do things that makes you happy 'on the edge' not what people exspects you to do. glad your better.

sporina

hey there, life is tough - but once you accept that then the rest is easier to handle,..

tenchi-fan

welcome to the real world.
I remember a few years ago my granny passed away. i turned my phone on and got a text which said "your gran is sick in hospital, come home if you can".. i rang home to find out it was too late. i couldn't hack my job at the time and this was the final straw so I left it... and leaving this job decimated my cv.. in the next 3-4 years i lost count of how many times i moved house and only recently found a home.
one sh!t piece of advice i was given was "things will get better." - by my well-meaning mother who witnessed every bad thing to happen to me and stood idly by (she probably could have stopped it if she had some backbone)
This is a lie.. things won't just get better
you will need to know what you want from life and work towards it.
Otherwise you're just coasting along and it won't end well

LegacyUser

tks for the wise advice.

some are a bit persimisstic but very true though.

the 'goal' advice is great.

i think i am actually suffering because i am pursuing the thing i want. but maybe i will finally fail to get what i want...and i hope i would still think it worths for all these i am going through even i can't get it.

again tks guys.

degrassinoel

take a break imo, literally unplug from all the shyte, doesnt have to be a holiday or abroad or anything exotic, just stop what yer doing and have a good long think about what your goals are.
Take a week, or two or a month, but it does sound like you need some time to yourself to straighten things out for yourself.

hope this was of some help OP