Misanthrope

bl8ckh8art

Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

The results of a personality test I took. I consider myself a misnthrope with serious trust issues and am withdrawn from society. You can't just talk to me, I have to think to myself, why are you talking to me? A lot of times when I have to be among other people I will just let them talk away, partially because some people like to talk and also because the only thing I despise more than anything is having to talk to you people. Actually that's wrong, the only thing worse than that is having to be among you in society which I limt to when it's absolulutely necessary. I don't think a psychiatrist would be able to help me, I tried that once but it didn't take. I see a few posts on here about suicide, but I would never do that, I get too much pleasure in hating everyone else. It's not love that's keeping me alive but hatred of myself and this hell you people call life. That's another thing, I woul say I am growing old but dying slowly. There's 2 people in my head, there's the other fella that says "why am I alone in the world" and believes that people can sometimes be kind. There's me who says "stop talking to me, what do you want?" I have absolutely no faith in humanity. People are not kind and you cannot rely on anyone but I unfortunately have to bear the hell of talking to and being around other people when necessity calls.

lynsalot

Hi OP,

Sounds a little bit like narcissistic personality disorder to me but I'm not a professional. You say ur not comfortable talking to people - plenty of people aren't naturally socialable and prefer their own company. It's interesting you said you don't like having to put up with other ppl etc but you've posted here I presume looking for help?

In my honest opinion I'm not sure what advice can be offered here though.... I know you said you've been down the road before but I think you should speak to you GP about being referred... maybe the last psychiatrist wasn't very good/ or you both didn't click or he didn't understand you but there's lots out there. Give it another try. what have u got to lose?

Nevyn

bl8ckh8art Internet tests are not worth the paper they are written on, if you do have any of the issues you have outlined, then you are beyond the help and remitt of this forum and I suggest you get professional help asap.

lynsalot do not given medical or professional advice on this site.
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