Sick of life, sick of being sick

LegacyUser

Hi i'm just so sick of life, nothing seems to go right for me i seem to take one step forward and 10 steps back.
Yesterday i found out after 3 years in the clear my cancer is back. I'm devestated the thought of treatment again terrifies me. To make matters worse my mother is in treatment for breast cancer at the moment, i havent told my family yet, i seriously dont think we can take anymore bad news. I have told one of my friends but i just feel so alone and scared, i just had to write down in words how i'm feeling. I'm only 22 i just want to be healthy and normal, i'm sick of being sick.

JonathanAnon

i dont think i have anything to offer in the way of advice but i'd just like to wish you well and hope u get better soon.

LegacyUser

So sorry to hear that.

Like above poster, can't offer advice, haven't been there, don't know what its like.

You know and understand your condition better than anyone here. Are the chances good?

Anyway that is truely ****e and puts everything else on here in perspective. So unfair. I hope you get through this OP. You probably will, modern medicine is good. Anyway, you're in my prayers.

LegacyUser

If you're strong enough to do treatment once, you know you're strong enough to do it twice.

Not today, obviously, but when you're ready you know will find the strength to do it cause if you weren't a strong person you wouldn't be posting here today.

Lots of love OP.

star-pants

As the previous poster, there's not much I can offer in way of advice.
I do sympathise with you though, it's a lot to go through at a young age, and to have your mother unwell too.
I can't (and won't) compare to your illness, it's in a different ballpark, but I get sick quite often and I can understand very much the 'sick of being sick'. It takes energy out of you and it can seem very depressing when you think you're on the mend and then you're not.
My mother is sick a lot, has been most of my life, and I can understand you not wanting to burden her with your news -- BUT -- your family would rather know, so they can be there for you. I'd hate to think of my mother not telling me something and knowing she'd gone through it alone.

You've fought this once, you can do it again. And I wish the best for you and your mother, I really do. My aunt has come through breast/lymph node cancer this year, so I understand the impact. This is the time to have your family's support *hug*

Peggypeg

Oh sweetie, that is just awful, you poor thing. I know what you mean about sick of being sick, I have Multiple Sclerosis, it's not near as bad as cancer but I can sympathise somewhat. And your poor mother too, what a horrible time for you.

I can understand you not wanting to put more saddness on your family's shoulders but people are stronger than you think, I think when you're ready to tell them you'll see how strong they can be for you. Honestly sweetie, having gone through this before you'll know that all you can do is put one foot in front of the other and deal with each day as it comes. If you've gone through this before you can beat it again.

Feeling so low will make it all seem so much harder, so if you can at all, try to keep your chin up, the more positive you can stay the better it'll be. I helped nurse a 9 year old through Luekemia a couple of years ago, it was awful but because she was a child she continually looked on the bright side of things and I think that helped her through it.

All my love and best wishes sweetie,
May the New Year bring health and happiness to you and all your family.

CathyMoran

Im a 2 year 10 month surviver myself and have always had the fear of reoccurence so I can imagine how you are feeling. (Am 35 now) and the treatment took a lot from me. All that I can really do is wish you all the best with your treatment...I would tell your mum though. Cancer is very scary and I know that the treatments are tough too...but you have suceeded in the past and you will again. Huge hugs. I do know that when you are facing treatment you go oh no I cant do this again but you find the strength to do it. There is something in there drives you and you can and will.