Feeling ****

LegacyUser

Hi, I'm running low on optimism atm. I've been on antidepressants and seeing therapists for over 2 years now, so I know all about that. I will continue with these treatments, but I'm feeling particularly **** lately. I've moved back home to my father's house where its just the two of us and he's a nightmare and I think my recent downturn is due to him.
I'm currently doing a degree, which really doesn't help either, and the intention was to stay here until the end of the academic year and then move out. I dunno if I can stay feeling like this for the rest of the year.
I'm afraid of moving out again, the meds make it particularly hard to get out of bed, but surely it can't be as bad as him waking me everyday and taking me out with him where all I do is listen to him insult me and the family, blame everything on me and complain about the fact that I have problems and then dismiss them.

The thing that worries me is that since getting bullied in school nearly 10 years ago, I haven't had a proper friend since. The only person in my life right now, apart from the therapist, is my father, and he's about the worst person to be stuck with.
I hate not having any friends to talk to. I try talking with people at classes or whatever and they're just never interested in knowing me, they all already have friends too.

Can CBT be effective regarding -complete- relationship problems?
I seem to be unable to get on with anybody for too long.
I've been recording thought patterns as some part of CBT, and I would love to hear someone elses experience with it. Google just seems to relate CBT to OCD or depression.

T "real deal" J

It's good your dad's getting you out of bed..it's paralysing staying in bed...and further depressing...
It's deadly that you're doing a degree...i can't understand why people aren't hanging around with you? who do you get lunch with? Have you any interests? can you join a society and get to know more people with similar interests to you...it'd be easy to talk to them

Just try not to take what your dad says overly seriously...just say "i'm doing my best...i'm going to do well in this degree". try to get on with what you're doing because focusing on negative things your dad says will simply be counterproductive...

remember this...it's a huge world out there with 6 billion people...think 5 years from now..you'll have done the degree...you could be on a yacht on the caribean with a bikini girl serving you a cockail cause you're working in bermuda...that's just one possibility...

just stay focused on your degree and doing deadly in it...another one bites the dust and you can move on then using the degree..
oh yeah..talk to more people just for the fun of it..nothing to lose

LegacyUser

T real deal J wrote: »

It's good your dad's getting you out of bed..it's paralysing staying in bed...and further depressing...
It's deadly that you're doing a degree...i can't understand why people aren't hanging around with you? who do you get lunch with? Have you any interests? can you join a society and get to know more people with similar interests to you...it'd be easy to talk to them

Just try not to take what your dad says overly seriously...just say "i'm doing my best...i'm going to do well in this degree". try to get on with what you're doing because focusing on negative things your dad says will simply be counterproductive...

remember this...it's a huge world out there with 6 billion people...think 5 years from now..you'll have done the degree...you could be on a yacht on the caribean with a bikini girl serving you a cockail cause you're working in bermuda...that's just one possibility...

just stay focused on your degree and doing deadly in it...another one bites the dust and you can move on then using the degree..
oh yeah..talk to more people just for the fun of it..nothing to lose

Thanks for your input
The degree has so few hours per week, the only time I have 2 lectures in one day, I go to the gym between the 2. I never eat lunch with anyone, I just grab a quick sandwich and eat it on the way to wherever I'm going. This leaves me with too much free time, which my dad wants to consume.
I tried joining a sports club but I thought it was very poorly organised and felt uneasy being there alone, while other people were there with mates.
For forever I've been thinking about joining the tennis club, which would get me out for an additional afternoon, but the tiredness and worrying about going alone puts me off.

I think atm I'm really worrying about the January exams as well, can't wait til they're over!

I do attend a weekly dance class and was doing a boxing course, which has stopped for christmas, but I never seem to get to be 'friends' with anyone. I do try talking, but it never goes anywhere. I've been doing the CBT stuff because I see everything that people do as negative and maybe I fall out with people too easily or expect too much.

To top it off, this girl I like came to the dance class the other day with what seems to be her boyfriend, which made me feel like a clown for thinking about her.