love down under

anon41

I would really like some ppls opinions on this as I feel like Im going around in circles. I have been wth my bf for 5 years. The first 3 years were really good, we both were happy, had jobs, friends and a good relationship with each other.

We had decided to go travelling together and started to save up for this. I had a good job at this time and worked with ppl I genuinely liked and got on well with. The job while not paying much had good prospects to move up.

As the time got closer to leave, my bf family & friends all said that once he left he wouldnt be back for years, that he had been a long time planning this trip etc. I however wanted to go for one year and then come home and said this. The months leading up to the trip I was very nervous and couldnt sleep at night. I felt I was leaving my old life behind, even though my bf wasnt saying he was going to leave for a long time I felt that this was true.

2 years later we are still abroad, and even though I am trying everyday not to, I feel a lot of resentment. My bf has a good job, family living close by and seems happy enough. I have stuggled to find work in my field and right now am between jobs (Again) for the last 2 months. I am currently working in a cafe part time and just feel like I want to go home.

We will be going to Ireland in the summer for a wedding (and may be going home for good, although he may not due to the recession) so if I was to go home now, he could follow me in the summer. He doesnt even want to talk about this and says I have a bad attitude and I should just embrace the life here.

I fell like I have embraced it plenty and now Im ready to go home. The tension between us is so bad at times. We used to be so close and now I just feel sad and upset a lot of the time. I know I wont be able to get my old job back cos of the recession which only makes me more bitter.Am I loosing touch with reality altogether?! I know its silly to feel like this..and I should jsut get on with it til the summer comes but Its getting really difficult day to day

How can I get over these feelings l and keep the person I love? Life is short and I want to be happy together

PirateShampoo

I think your probably looking at Ireland through rose tinted glass's.

Maybe you should come home for a month or 2, because once your back I'm pretty sure you will realize its not as you remembered and will regret coming back.