Advice needed please

LegacyUser

Hi, my name is James. The reason I'm posting here is that I have nobody else to talk to and don't have the courage to see a counsellor yet. My problem is drink. I've only been drinking a year but it's getting out of control ever since I started college in september. I've had numerous nights when I can't remember anything etc. and I'm incredibly depressed the days afterwards. I've fallen way behind in my subjects and am seriosuly worried I'll fail my Christmas exams. This would destroy my parents and my family. My mother and father have poured so much effort into getting me to college, paying my accom, visitng me, everything and I am throwing it all away. I cannot even sleep now at the thought of it all, hence why I'm here. The incident that made me make this thread happened last night when I tried to attack a residents' officer on campus for no reason while out of my mind drunk. If I wasn't restrained by my friends I would have been evicted definitely. This kind of behaviour is incredibly out of character for me, I've never even been in a real fight. I feel like I'm throwing my life away completely and am at a loss as what to do next. I want to explain everything to my parents but they won't understand. Please, please give me some advice as what to do. I want to stop drinking but it's just so hard. I know my liver is suffering aswell and am terrified of long term damage. Another worry.....I can't deal with this at all and am suffering from depression. I have no urge to do anything anymore, see anyone, just drinking and avoiding doing my college work. I have no idea how to get back on track.

extra-ordinary_

Contact the college counsellor and make an appointment. He/she will be able to help you and give you good advice. You could also try AA. Try not to drink again until you see the counsellor or try and drink less.

LegacyUser

Hey OP,

Sounds like a really vicious cycle. You wake up after drinking feel like crap realise you've done god knows what the night before, then you start to think about how your college work is suffering and how you "THINK" your parents will be disappointed. Then to escape this you have another drink and hey presto the cycle continues. I might be wrong but this is just what it sounds like. Did you drink before you started college, if so was it out of control etc? If you didn't have a drink problem before you went to college, then it could very well be you've just got into a rut. Go and see the college counsellor and possibly your GP. Chances are they might give you some anti -depressants. You seriously need to try and stay sober before you do something stupid that you can't take back. The fact you're lashing out at people "for no apparent reason" while you're drunk could be this frustration and worry and disappointment you feel raring it's ugly head and you're just venting these feelings in ways that you shouldn't be.

Go get help and don't feel embarrassed or ashamed, we all go through bad phases in our life and it takes a stronger person to pick themselves up admit they've a problem and go do something about it.

Best of luck with this x

LegacyUser

username21 wrote: »

Did you drink before you started college, if so was it out of control etc? If you didn't have a drink problem before you went to college, then it could very well be you've just got into a rut. Go and see the college counsellor and possibly your GP. Chances are they might give you some anti -depressants. You seriously need to try and stay sober before you do something stupid that you can't take back. The fact you're lashing out at people "for no apparent reason" while you're drunk could be this frustration and worry and disappointment you feel raring it's ugly head and you're just venting these feelings in ways that you shouldn't be.

Go get help and don't feel embarrassed or ashamed, we all go through bad phases in our life and it takes a stronger person to pick themselves up admit they've a problem and go do something about it.

Best of luck with this x

I had some bad incidents during the summer, maybe four or five but it seems every week this is happening now in college. And you are so right, it feels like I'm in a viscious cycle that I can't escape. Thanks for understanding. I'm seeing a counsellor today hopefully so we'll see what happens.

extra-ordinary_ wrote: »

Contact the college counsellor and make an appointment. He/she will be able to help you and give you good advice. You could also try AA. Try not to drink again until you see the counsellor or try and drink less.

Yes, I'm going to do that. I feel too sick to even think about drinking, I know it will jsut make me even more depressed. Thank you.

LegacyUser

No problem, hope you get your life back on track soon x