bored out of my tree

LegacyUser

Basically like many threads here I'm another single bored male. I was alway quite active back at school and enjoyed sports but when i hit 14 picked up a serious enough leg injury playing football and went a bit off the rails and started drinking regularily and then before long was doing a lot of drugs, pretty much everthing. Eventullay managed to cut back on the drugs at around 21 as i felt I was heading for a massive breakdown, by about 23 i had completely given them up and now in my early thirties. Still enjoy a drink as I'm happy to have kicked my drug habit completely. At 24 I moved away for a couple of years, which was great but had to come home

Got back and got a job and just got myself in a bit of a rut, working everyday and just watching tv in the evening. My life felt pretty empty so i decided to get active again. Started to do a lot of exercise and sports, pretty much every activity known to man, you name it, I ve done it! I would try and do something everyday. I think i became addicted to physical exercise and if I missed a day without doing something I would get very depressed for that day and have a massive feeling of guilt.

However ended up picking up an injury about a year ago, it actually stems from the serious injury I got when I was 14, and has pretty much put an end to my activities. I've spent a couple of grand visiting docs, specialists, physios and there does not seem to be anything that can be done, it seems to be chronic. Now my life is empty again and I'm bored out of my tree. I have no interest in my job but just do it so I have a few quid in my pocket, although I wouldn't give it up given the current economic conditions so am very grateful to have it. I can still go to the gym and use most of the machines but dont really have any interest in that and I've been tring it regularily but it aint growing on me ,as what previously made me tick was training hard and competing knowing that I had put in the hard training.

I dont really have any interest in doing other stuff, like learning a musical instruments or joining a club of some sort, sport pretty much became my life. I dont think i'd be able to train a team either as I would find it too difficult to swallow

Also I'm single which I didn't mind when I was training hard but now it doesn't help the boredom and I cant see that changing, it's probably been 6 years since I met a girl that has make my heart race, and I dont seem the point of going out with a girl for the sake of it, even if she's a nice girl! That may sound arrogant but in my lifetime I probably met 3 girls that I became obsessed with and literally would occupy my thoughts 24\7 and I'm guessing that's how you should feel for your girlfriend, otherwise you're a fraud, and as I said it's been a long time since i had feelings of those kind.

Thanks for reading my rant, my issues are nothing compared to most threads on this forum but I just decided to put it on paper as I hear it can make it easier, please feel free to offer any suggestions\reccommendation that you may help cheer up my dull life!

laura l

didn't want to read and not reply
sorry to hear about the sports injuries, must be very hard to take, being knocked back twice so far with injury and obviously being so dedicated and committed.
would you consider going to your GP and talking to a counsellor? Do you still have to manage pain etc from the injury?