split again

LegacyUser

been on before about this relationship.... have broken up a good few times the course of 9/10 years. mostly its bn her doing the breaking up and even though this time it was me, i did it cos i didnt think she felt the same for me considering how i felt and the effort i made....

i still love her to bits but realise that she just doesnt feel the same....

i always and probably wrongly thought that she did love me and we just struggled due to(her words, issues she has with relationships, parents, trust, alcoholism, etc) side issues and that the fact she loved me we could oversome anything... she just said that she feels trapped and cant see where we are going...

i had to walk awayfor my own sake even though i didnt want to, she said that she knows in 2/3 months she'll be wanting me back again(always happened in thepast, and she comes after me promising she loves me and cant live without me)and i always go back.

i have no backbone with her and i no it, this time goes against the trend! she even wanted us to see a counsellor to try and find out whats going on with us but im just so fed up and tired of trying i didnt want to prolong the agony by her being half hearted about it... i felt if she couldnt respond to the obvious pain and hurt im going thru then it just isnt there...

there is also the issue of a 4 1/2 year old child too.... its not an easy situation but one iv been thru a few times....

i wish more than anything it cud work, genuinely think she does too but for whatever reason she doesnt feel that way now, after 9 years i find it hard to take that a woman i love so much(never in doubt) doesnt feel the same and almost finds it easier dump me than tell me she loves me....its hard to take!!!

dudara

OP - some capital letters, paragraphs and overall punctuation would really help your post. When people can read a post easily, they will be more inclined to respond.

I've edited in some paragraphs

dudara