my low moods are scaring me

iguana2005

have just come out of a 4 day very low mood. I didnt want to shower, left my self go(no makeup, didnt wash hair), felt like crap-was walking around the town and felt like a down and out, anxiety were horrendous at night(am sure i have an ulser), woke up early5am) but could not get up so slept in - ended up sleeping 15 hrs the other evening, suicidal thoughts(would never have the guts to do anything maybe a few painkillers with beer to make me out of it), lashing my head in frustration.

I suffer from depression(abviously) but feel my meds(after 21 yrs on and off) are not working. My negativity is actually killing me. My work is suffering and have been asked to get it togehther or leave. I have no interested in work even though if i was not working it would kill me. THe job is fine just my inner dialogue is killing me(your crap, what will I do today, have nothing to do maybe i will be fired, everyone is talking about me).
If you saw me I look so normal. Dont know what to do have been down this trail beoofre but the low mood was very severe this time. Took a double dose of meds tis morning and starting t feel normal and innser dialogue funny and more upbeat again.,

Doctor again? Change meds? Does depression get worse as you get older

Madame Razz

Perhaps some counselling might be helpful??

Kevster

Depression has no relation to age at all. What it has relation to is circumstances in a person' life, and right now your circumstances are such that you have depression. This - however - implies that if your circumtances were to change, then your depression would lifft. Always remember this simple fact. When we're depressed, don't focus on the depression itself; instead, focus on WHY you are depressed and WHERE you would like to be (i.e. where you think you could be such that you would be happier in your life).

Thus, I ask you this: Where do you want to be right now that would make you happy?; and what would you like to be doing? When you answer this to me, then consider the following question: How can you change your life's path to bring you to that happier place?

Take care my friend,
Kevin

sam34

iguana2005 wrote: »

Took a double dose of meds tis morning and starting t feel normal and innser dialogue funny and more upbeat again.,

Doctor again? Change meds? Does depression get worse as you get older

taking extra doses of meds is inadvisable and potentially dangerous, depinding what teh meds are.
you should discuss your options with your doctor

Terodil

Well, tbh, if your doc has kept you on antidepressants for more than a decade, I would question his approach. I'm not a doctor but antidepressants should in general only be taken for short periods of time to support therapy.

I'd definitely advise you to change the doctor, best to seek a specialist because there might be an issue of drug addiction from prolonged consumption.

sam34

Terodil wrote: »

Well, tbh, if your doc has kept you on antidepressants for more than a decade, I would question his approach. I'm not a doctor but antidepressants should in general only be taken for short periods of time to support therapy.

I'd definitely advise you to change the doctor, best to seek a specialist because there might be an issue of drug addiction from prolonged consumption.

firstly, some people do need longterm maintenance anti-depressants.
anti-depressants are not just to support therapy. they have a huge role to play in the management of a very debilitating illness.

secondly, there is NO RISK of addiction to anti-depressants.this is one of teh greatest myths out there about anti-depressants.

LegacyUser

iguana2005 wrote: »

have just come out of a 4 day very low mood. I didnt want to shower, left my self go(no makeup, didnt wash hair), felt like crap-was walking around the town and felt like a down and out, anxiety were horrendous at night(am sure i have an ulser), woke up early5am) but could not get up so slept in - ended up sleeping 15 hrs the other evening, suicidal thoughts(would never have the guts to do anything maybe a few painkillers with beer to make me out of it), lashing my head in frustration.

I suffer from depression(abviously) but feel my meds(after 21 yrs on and off) are not working. My negativity is actually killing me. My work is suffering and have been asked to get it togehther or leave. I have no interested in work even though if i was not working it would kill me. THe job is fine just my inner dialogue is killing me(your crap, what will I do today, have nothing to do maybe i will be fired, everyone is talking about me).
If you saw me I look so normal. Dont know what to do have been down this trail beoofre but the low mood was very severe this time. Took a double dose of meds tis morning and starting t feel normal and innser dialogue funny and more upbeat again.,

Doctor again? Change meds? Does depression get worse as you get older

Your depression is defining you at the moment (going by the work comment). It's alright to have uncertainties, bad days, low moods, and just plain old days where we don't feel like getting out of bed. These bad days doesn't mean that your actually that type of person.

You're carrying a huge burden at the moment and are trying to keep things going, which would be huge task for anyone. I would suggest talking to your boss at work, explaining your situation (they wouldn't have hired you if they didn't think you were right for the job). You might be able to get some time off, and give yourself the time and care that you need, whether it's to find a new doctor, surrounding yourself with good friends and family, getting regular exercise, eating well.

Don't let your depression define you, when you see a bad bout coming (you might recognise the triggers), prepare yourself so that you can face it and not let it overcome who you are.

all the best

Good luck

LegacyUser

I think you have classic symptoms of depression/anxiety. Sleep, concentration, paranoia all affected.
I know because Im going through exactly the same.
I think you can do some exercise, good diet, talk to people, see a counsellor or psychotherapist and go to your gp again or better still a psychiatrist.
I do all these things and just tell myself this too will pass but still at times I feel like Im going mad. This is not easy. I had to leave my desk numerous times today to walk to church to say a few prayers. Il do anything to move onwards and upwards.

miss-bored

know the feeling. I am 29 years old and have been taking anti-depressants for about 9 years now. I have changed medication a few times and am on Cymbalta for the past year.

I still feel down at times but this would only be triggered by events in my life. The only reason i have achieved so much in life is due to antidepressants. Before i took them i had no ambition, no life, no work, nothing. Since then I have proper qualifications, job, boyfriend etc.

I have been feeling very down for the past week though due to an argument with my boyfriend. I get so down at stages like these. I had to go out Mon and Tues nights this week and get completely hammered so i wouldn’t have to think about things. And believe me I get very very drunk.

I have also been advised by my mother never to tell my boyfriend that i’m on antidepressants. I'm going out with this guy about 15 months and he doesn’t know. Is that right?

Do i just continue taking medication for the rest of my life? Or what the hell am i doing?

CDfm

miss-bored wrote: »

I have also been advised by my mother never to tell my boyfriend that i’m on antidepressants. I'm going out with this guy about 15 months and he doesn’t know. Is that right?

Do i just continue taking medication for the rest of my life? Or what the hell am i doing?

Ask your doctor on the meds as they are working - see sam34 post above.

On your boyfriend how close are you. You cant keep quite about it indefinately.

iguana2005

I have also been advised by my mother never to tell my boyfriend that i’m on antidepressants. I'm going out with this guy about 15 months and he doesn’t know. Is that right?

Do i just continue taking medication for the rest of my life? Or what the hell am i doing?[/quote]

Thanks for all the replies..got me period today which explains a lot and am such a different person from last week its SCARY. Am back to being busy at work and being positive. Its such a roller coaster.

I tell close friends im on meds..would not feel ashamed..I would tell him as its not really a big deal..its like taking the pill...yes lots of people stay on meds for rest of their lives..very common especially around this neck of the woods...what makes me sad is seeing my friends kids playing around without a care in the world...when i was young i felt different and was so so anxious i didnt do most things(swim classes, ballet) as was too nervous...having alcoholic mum helped as she didnt want to deal with it so we just stayed at home