Can't control my drinking

LegacyUser

I'm not looking for a diagnosis first off, just other people's experience... I've been wondering lately whether I'm an alocoholic and looked up the Alcoholics Anon website and did there self assessment - I answered yes to seven or eight questions and a 'score' of three would suggest (by their definitions) you're an alcoholic.

I know I have a problem drinking but labelling myself an alcoholic terrifies me. What are people's experiences with AA? Is is all about admitting you're an alcoholic or can you just be a 'problem drinker'?

All this resulted from my experience the other night in which (again) I blacked out, was brought home from the pub by a mate and couldn't even walk up the stairs to bed and just slept on the couch. On a regular basis I drink to blackout. Sometimes I drink alone. And sometimes I lie about how much I drink / frequency - classic signs, I know.

Nevyn

First few meeting you don't have to say anything you can just sit and listen.
Have you any idea why you drink?

LegacyUser

mostly it's a confidence issue. I only go OTT around certain people - these are my oldest friend's curiously enough. I've a history where I adopted a certain personality to 'fit in' started with school led to an emotional breakdown. I've gotten therapy for that issue, it's the drinking that's still the hang-up though. My friends still expect me to be the funny care-free guy and I only feel accepted with I 'perform' as such - it's ridiculous as I'm in my late twenties and other people don't see me this way.

But I have noticed a general trend in that I need to get pissed at least once a week and generally on my own. I almost prefer to sit down with six-eight cans and drink them watching a movie to going out. My g/f rightly has challenged me on it but I've always defended it. But I know now it's not right. I often hide some of the cans so it doesn't look like I've been drinking as much.

Kenno90

It's nothing to be ashamed about, go to a group meeting , you don't even have to sit down , just check it out , most likely there will be a few pamphlets around to give you a better idea on how to handle it.

The fact that you've posted about it means your ready to deal with it , good luck with it :)

havana

Don't worry about labels. The fact that you recognise that your drinking is causing issues for you is the main thing. As others suggest pop along to a meeting and see what you think. I'd also suggest maybe trying a couple of different meetings till you find you you feel comfortable in. It can be pretty easy (and convenient) to decide this is not for me.

And most of all best of luck!

LegacyUser

Youre making a start. I was married to an alcoholic. It took me a while to realise he was one because I had a stereotype in my head. Unlike you he didnt recognise he had any problem and our relationship eventually ended.

If you are dependent on alcohol you have a problem and one you need to get under control sooner rather than later.

Youre doing the right thing, I wish you strength and lots of good luck.