When will there be this magical turnaround?

LegacyUser

I'm giving up on everything. I've had a fairly bad month recently between friendships and home life and I'm just fed up of it all. Everyone is promising me this great big turnaround and I'm not being the most negative person about it but FFS where is it? I make my own luck right? Well I haven't exactly done anything to deserve what's been happening and at this stage it's gone beyond the point of any feeling. I don't hate anybody, i'm indifferent to everyone. I'm indifferent to myself and i feel completely empty and to be honest...I don't like it anymore.

Elbi

Look at it this way, if you feel it cant get any worse then things can only get better!

LegacyUser

Yes, but everytime I've said that the last month, something worse has happened, and i've gotten to the stage where i feel nothing worse could happen but i'm afraid to say so because it will. It can get worse, it can always worse because really it's never as bad as we think. But at this stage, it's all coming at me at the one time and it's very difficult to take.

LegacyUser

I know exactly how you feel, i gave up on waiting for things to get better years ago. My life would finally start getting back on track and then something would happen that i have no control over, take the last year for example: my mother has a mental illness and was off her trolley for about 6 months. i had to leave my job that i really loved because i was being treated unfairly by my boss. Then, in jan i had to basically move in with my mother to get her back on her feet, room-mate moved to austrailia without telling myself and partner in advance so we had to move out asap. So just as things started to be looking up in april my dad (strongest person i know) had a very serious stroke, he is self employed and cant work without the use of his hand (was a jeweller), he is a different person now, i cry everytime i think about him. Plus my mother is gone nuts again. None of my older brothers or sister give a crap about my mother so its always up to me to sort her out, I have been doing it since my parents split when i was 12, i never went to school, have no real close friends and now i have to do things the hard way to better my life which i am trying to do but i cant get a job. I recently got into a course but i fould out today that im not going to get back to ed allowence so i probably wont be able to do it.

Sorry about the long rant but waiting for your life to get better doesnt work, you just have to get on with it and accept things in life that you cant change and get on with it. You have had a bad month, well ive had a bad decade but im not going to wallow about it ever again, you just have to get on with it or if you dont want to do that then do something about it.

LegacyUser

Thanks for the reply there, I suppose that's really putting things in perspective for me. I'd just like to be happy as well I suppose even if I have to accept all these things. =( I dunno, its just that point, from what you've told me I hope I can look at things differently.

dudara

You need to move to a more positive frame of mind. That is the single biggest thing you can do to help yourself. Yes, cr*p happens, but if you focus on the negative, it will never improve.