Break up?

LegacyUser

I don't really know what to do or think.

I'm in a long term relationship with my girlfriend, we're both 20. I love her to bits, she's my first ever proper girlfriend, she's beautiful, charming, polite... everything.

But recently i've been doubting our relationship. i only just noticed that she never ever made any effort with any of my friends and they all dislike her which hurts me.

she has a problem with drinking, she doesn't know when to stop and i often have to take care of her, which isn't a fun night for me at all.
i'm not an aggressive person, but since i met her i find it harder and harder to control my anger. obviously, we've had our fair share of arguments and fights, and before i could just talk through it, but these days she winds me up so much i often end up punching a wall or kicking it and i've hurt my foot badly from this and had to go to hospital once.

i feel like she has turned me into someone i do not know. someone who is aggressive, which i never was before. we fight all the time which just makes me depressed and sometimes i get days where i cannot smile. but she makes me smile when she comes around after a fight, but then it's just an ever lasting circle, we fight again, say mean things, get angry, get back together, have great make up sex, then fight again. it's never ending.

and i feel like i'm stuck in a rut now. i don't know if i should continue with her, i don't see us going anywhere, i don't see us having kids or ever getting married. i'm still young and i want to see the rest of the world, get some life experience. but i'm terrified of being on my own...

my question is, what would you do?

Nervous Wreck

Forget what anyone else would do man, do what you need to. Sounds from your post that you need to end this before it gets you down even more. I don't see many positives coming from your post. Sometimes love isn't enough.