How to get over this

LegacyUser

Hi I need some advice here. Just started seeing an old BF of many years ago, we are in our 40s and have both had some tough experiences but never forgot one another(we split due to outside factors years ago). All was going good but due to the fact it was long distance we keep in contact a lot by phone etc. Well last weekend I got bad news it turns out I have had an incomplete miscarriage, it wasn't planned I never even knew I pregnant even though I have grown kids. Thing is I could not reach BF at all by phone. After finally getting a hold of him I lost it and told him I didn't want to speak to him again..turned out he had a family crisis and wasn't even at home. I never told him what had happened ,we just had a huge fight which we never do.Every time he spoke to me I just got angry and irrational, like I was possessed. To make matters worse a foreign male friend of mine from work rang me about something trivial and after me sobbing out my story he got confused due to his poor english,got the wrong end of the stick entirely and then he left a message for my BF telling him off for making me upset.
BF then rang for 2 secs to say that he had enough abuse for one day and was turning his phone off...and I STILL hadn't told him that I was on my way up to hospital to have procedure done due to miscarriage.
After crying myself to sleep I finally had got to txt him this morn when his phone was back on and explain what had happened, I just keep crying all the time and could not even talk to him. He told me he would call me after I had a sleep as doctor gave me some meds to help me sleep.He was very kind and supportive but all I could do is ramble I am acting crazy.
I don't know how to handle this, my mam died a few weeks ago and it feels like just as I was getting it together I am back to square one.
I love this guy but he is at the other end of the country, he has to work this week and they are laying off people so he has no choice but to be there. I feel so alone if it hadn't been for my older kids I dont think I could get through. Has anyone any advise on how to work through this...I am ok one minute then crying the next. Sorry this is so long, thanks

Munster_Gal

Hi OP
I dont really know what to say to you ...... Im sure it must be really hard for you. Do you have any friends that you could stay with for a few days until your BF is able to come home? It might be worth going to see your doctor to see if he can give you something to help you through....

idontknowmyname

I'm so sorry for your loss you were still grieving for your mother and now you've lost a baby, yes it wasn't planned but it will still put you back at square one in the grieving process. Speak to the doctor, maybe they can put you in touch with a bereavement counsellor