Thinking about Suicide All The Time

LegacyUser

Well it's all in the thread title. Most of the time all I'm able to think about is suicide. I've even gone to the trouble of looking up different methods of suicide to see which would be the most effective but to little avail.

I'm just bored, sick and fed up of life and sometimes I can't really take it. I don't feel I have any future ahead of me, I don't have many friends and the woman I love is moving to a different country and doesn't want to be with me anymore. Life is just one mind-numbingly drudge after another and if I was hit by a car out on the road tomorrow and died I couldn't really care less. I've felt like this for at least the past 2 years. The people that I've encountered have all but killed any faith I had left in humanity and left me a hopeless pessimist. I never look forward to anything anymore.

You might say "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem", but how is the problem so temporary when I have to go through it everyday?

Thanks for listening.

Victor

Unregistered wrote: »

You might say "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem", but how is the problem so temporary when I have to go through it everyday?

I've had some bad times in my life, but it was never all day, every day - although it felt like that sometimes.

I once thought about suicide, but decided that only let the "bad people" win. I've not looked back since.

Can I ask you to talk to your doctor? Just phone in the morning, say you have a serious problem and that you need to see someone as soon as possible.

ellieh1

Victor wrote: »

I've had some bad times in my life, but it was never all day, every day - although it felt like that sometimes.

I once thought about suicide, but decided that only let the "bad people" win. I've not looked back since.

Can I ask you to talk to your doctor? Just phone in the morning, say you have a serious problem and that you need to see someone as soon as possible.

+1

LegacyUser

It sounds like you are suffering from depression. Millions of people suffer from depression, myself included. You are not alone, even though you may feel like that.

But millions of people recover from depression too. Your GP is your first port of call - he/she listens to problems like yours all the time and is there to help. Plus your GP won't judge you - they are there to care for your mental health as well as your physical health.

There are lots of resources for people who feel depressed. For example, the people at AWARE www.aware.ie run free support groups where you can talk openly about your problems.

Best Wishes, I hope you feel better soon.

Adelante

+1 Victor and Eilleh1

OP,please be assured that we offer you a listening ear whereby listening we do not take your problem from you, but allow you to deal with it in your own way, in your time.

You have room to discover for yourself what is really going on.

To accept advice here OP, is to say that we really haven't listened.When we listen we can grasp your point of view even when it's against our own sincere convictions.

We really listen when we hold back our desire to give you "good advice" because we accept the simple fact that you feel what you feel no matter how irrational you or anyone else may think it is, you can stop trying to convince us. We can hear you

We listen when we accept your gift of gratitude- for being able to come on here so openly and talk about you and whats important to you,to know the little bit we offer to you,has a higher intention.


-Could you consider the following, if you were to seek help would it be an option for you?

Peace and Love

Overheal

I thought about it once upon a time, but I wanted to jam a scalpel in my eye then slice my arms laterally... But then you begin to realise as bad as things are or as insatiably boring as things have gotten, once you're dead you're not whisked of to Disneyland the Heaven edition, you're just dead, and can't even sing emo songs to yourself. Or masturbate. Its the best and only form of self mutilation for me.

But hey thats depression, and to me, you sound depressed. You can talk about anything on your mind here. But also, I'd recommend speaking with a GP: Medication can squelch symptoms (like thoughts of suicide) while you work out the problem through counseling.

Adam

hi op

i know exactly how you feel. that sounds clichéd but it's true. i had a thread here shortly before christmas saying basically the same thing.

to cut a long story short, i didn't do anything. no councelling, no meds. i just kept going. and while i'm not exactly over the moon every day, things are certainly better than they were. and i think if you're honest you know what i mean. i guess it is depression, but it comes and goes. yes, even in years. but you havent always been miserable. you've just gotta chin up and get through it unfortunately.

surround yourself with the people you do care about, even if there's only a few like myself.
set some goals for yourself this year, it gives you a bit more drive to get through the bad patch.

best of luck and dont give up! i wont if you dont

luckat

Hello, Unregistered. Have you talked to Samaritans?

It sounds as if you're in a state of mind where you see suicide as a solution to your anxiety and anger and misery - in fact, you see it as the only solution.

I was talking to someone recently who had been feeling like this, and she realised that she liked gardening. She started volunteering as a gardener, and found that she *loved* gardening. After a couple of months, she looked back at her suicidal feelings and thought they were completely unrealistic.

She's now very happy.

Maybe give Samaritans a ring, talk to them about how you're feeling.

RossFixxxed

Once you start thinking a lot about it it's time to get off the internet and into a doctor's office.

Do it now and stop surfing.

Darragh29

Unregistered wrote: »

Well it's all in the thread title. Most of the time all I'm able to think about is suicide. I've even gone to the trouble of looking up different methods of suicide to see which would be the most effective but to little avail.

I'm just bored, sick and fed up of life and sometimes I can't really take it. I don't feel I have any future ahead of me, I don't have many friends and the woman I love is moving to a different country and doesn't want to be with me anymore. Life is just one mind-numbingly drudge after another and if I was hit by a car out on the road tomorrow and died I couldn't really care less. I've felt like this for at least the past 2 years. The people that I've encountered have all but killed any faith I had left in humanity and left me a hopeless pessimist. I never look forward to anything anymore.

You might say "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem", but how is the problem so temporary when I have to go through it everyday?

Thanks for listening.

OP what recent events can you point to that have left you feeling so pessimistic as you have put it yourself? Are you working? I can guarantee you that I have met more c*nts and w*ankers in the last two years than you have.

RossFixxxed

You are best getting immediate, IMMEDIATE treatment from GP and whoever he refers you too. Everyone has stories and good advice but it is best listened to from a more stable base. There are solutions and there is treatment. You can beat this and you won't know yourself once you do. It almost seems like magic sometimes.

Good luck OP, I hope you let us know how you get on. If you need any names or phone numbers check the sticky or give me a PM and I'll help out.

R