don't want to live anymore

LegacyUser

where to start.
I'm Male, late 20's
My best friend died a few weeks ago, suddenly after a short illness.

My girlfriend of 11 years broke up with me. We had a great 10 years and a few little arguments and she was gone.


I recently lost my job like a lot of people. I dislike my siblings,(3sisters+3brothers) for many reasons, their selfishness being one.

The rest of my friends have moved away. I have no qualifications except leaving certificate.

I have a good relationship with my parents but its more of a silent one.
I just dont see where my life is going. No job, no friends, no money, not much of a family.

I'm not good looking, i'm carrying a few extra pounds i cant shift no matter how hard i try, and trust me i tried.
And then to top it off, i find out earlier (wednesday) that i'm going deaf.

Really nice new year.
I wouldn't say i'm depressed but i'm really down and dont see the point any more. The only people it would upset would be my parents but they would get over it eventually.

Dying doesn't really bother me. Its just the sadness and emptiness of life that bothers me.

Wibbs

You've been hit by a succession of hard knocks that would leave anyone reeling. This I don't need to tell you. What I can tell you extra to that is this will change. The one constant in life is change, you really don't know what's around the next corner for you.

If you're feeling like this you need to get help. You've made the step of writing it down here, but people here are not qualified to help you, no matter their best intentions. The next step is to find those who are. Your GP would be a good first port of call. If you feel uncomfortable with that you could try aware or the samaritans. There are numbers and web addresses in the stickies here.

You're lost at the moment, but there is a road map that will take you back to where you need to be for you and those in your life. Many you haven't even met yet.

Best of luck to you.