Forever unhappy

LegacyUser

I've been going to college 6 years now (1 and 1/2 courses) and I feel I've yet to live a day of my life, even though college is supposed to be one of the happier times in ones life.

I'm an average looking guy with a below average personality. I try to be nice/polite to everyone I meet, but I never connect with anyone, in a friendship type of way or in male-female type of way.

Truth be told I find when I do start to find friendship, I end up keeping them at arms length because I almost prefer it that way.

My attempts to be nice and polite to people is only a facade really, underneath I'm thinking of all the things I don't like about this person.

I tend to focus on the negative aspects of everything, finding faults in people, finding faults in my own life, finding faults in all things. It's gotten to a stage where I'm so unhappy all the time I seem to have given myself a permanent head ache.

When I do mange to smile if I'm watching a funny film or comedian, I find my cheeks get really sore quickly I'm that un-used to smiling.

I feel really lethargic all day long, even though I tend to end up in bed early because I feel like doing nothing else but sleeping. I'm really starting to feel the heavy toll of a thousand sighs.

Otis Driftwood

Honestly mate it sounds like you are kind of depressed.You are sort of contradicting yourself too in that you say

I try to be nice/polite to everyone I meet, but I never connect with anyone, in a friendship type of way or in male-female type of way.

Truth be told I find when I do start to find friendship, I end up keeping them at arms length because I almost prefer it that way.

Its hard to make friends if you dont make much of an effort yourself.Friendships and/or relationships dont just happen,it takes a bit of effort from both sides.