I don't know what do to

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I don't know where to start. For reference I'm in my early 20's in college.

So there's this girl I asked out a few months ago. We only went on one date, didn't even kiss, but she said she'd rather remain friends (though we weren't friends as such before I asked her out).

I took it pretty hard at the time, since I was really infatuated with this girl for over a year before I made a move. But I got over it quick enough and we're back on very amicable terms, and I've asked another girl out since.

But I was at a party recently, and she hooked up with one of my friends. I had a funny feeling it was going to happen because of how they'd been acting around each other before, so I had told myself I wouldn't let it affect me. At a previous party I saw them getting close and it started to upset me, so I just drank a stupid amount to keep my mind off it.

This time I couldn't help myself. I stopped drinking, stopped talking to anyone, I just sat there until it was time to leave. I really didn't want to, but I just couldn't force myself to not feel like that. I didn't want to care.

The next day I went back around to help clean up and most people were still there, I was grand feelings wise (though the two weren't cuddling or anything). Later on that evening when I went home I just crashed and cried for a few hours.

It was then I didn't know what to do. Stuff like this happens every few months to me, I just crash some evening and cry for a few hours, then I feel fine after. But I know I can't just keep whining to my friends about it. There's only about 3 or 4 of my friends I actually talk to when I feel rotten, and I feel horrible having to turn to them every time, so I don't want to and then I have no one to turn to. I feel that people who really know me don't really want to know me anymore.

It's at the stage now where I'll text one of my friends being upset, and if they don't reply for a while, I decide against it and just make up that I was talking about something else and that I'm fine.

I have no idea why I'm this upset. I cried that evening for ages but then felt alright after a few hours, then yesterday I felt a bit down towards the end of the day. This morning I woke up early and just started crying, I went back to sleep after a while and then woke up alright, and now I have to hold back tears.

Normally when I get upset over a girl it's just a few hours crying someday, but it's been over 48 hours now and I'm still depressed, I haven't been like that before. I just keep oscillating between feeling fine and tears.

It will pass.
For heavens sake avoid situations like that.

Chin up.
Harden yourself and stop looking for love-concentrate on friendliness.

You say,you don't know what to do..well you don't have to do anything other than that