Another *Damn it* thread!

[Jackass]

Sorry for burdening this forum with another *damn it* thread!!

I suppose just posting this for my own benefit, feel free to ignore.

So 48 hours cold turkey, have been a bit on edge, but nothing I can't handle. Smoked 20 day for 10 years. (building up to 20 over the years). I'm 25 years old. So was a very heavy smoker.

I don't know what the hardest part is. In work I get cravings because work can wreck my head so much I used to love nipping out for a smoke to get away.

The past couple of days I just went for a stroll or something.

Things I've looked out for is to try and not replace the craving for some sort of *hit* with eating and stuff like that, so I have a cup of tea or something instead and have been to the gym a couple of times for the first time in ages and have walked to and from work the last couple of days (half and hour each journey) and drink lots of water during the day, because I think feeling healthy helps the determination to beat smoking.

Boredom is the worst thing!! The hardest part is just sitting around, but then, all you need to do is distract yourself. Simple in theroy.

Anyway, have very recently broken up with my girlfriend too, which I'm coping ok with too, but tonight, I was bored and couldn't stop thinking about the last smoke in the house.

Then I caved. 5 minutes ago I smoked.

All I can say is, I feel like sh*t now. I kind of feel depressed at giving in and thinking about it. I was doing well and I could have gone to bed and tomorrow would have been a new day.

I've set myself small goals at a time.

Yesterday my goal was to go the whole day. Today my goal was make it to the weekend. Then I was going to make it through the weekend. That would have been 5 days and the dreaded weekend, and I knew if I made it that far I would be in very good stead. But I caved. I really regret it.

Well, all I can do is try and get back on the horse. I think I'm at a point mentally where I have programmed myself to resent ciggarettes and what they cost me financially, the way they make me feel (sometimes minging from smelling etc.) I hate the dependancy, I hate the control it has over me.

I suppose I lost sight of my small goals today and the whole context of "giving up" got to me.

For anybody off them at the moment reading this who is tempted, if you smoke and feel anything like I do right now it really isn't worth it. Where you are now is the easiest place you've been at since you gave up, you are just losing sight of where you are in your goal. Smoking knocks you back so much and makes the whole thing so much harder again.

I'll check back in and let you all know how I get on.

Hopefully this will be a lesson to me that I need to push on and not slip again.

Idiot.

Best of luck to all of you and hang in there!

vodkadub

haven't smoked a week and three days after reading allen cars book, love being smoke free!

doonothing

Did you have to go to the effort of going to the shop and buying smokes or were they in the house? If the latter, get them out! I nearly caved 48 hours in too, had the lighter in my hand and all, but at the last second i snapped it and all the ones left in the box! Bit dramatic i know, haha, but it was definitely worth it!

If you had to go to the effort of going to the shop, then that's what you need to work on! Just try and have less than 8 quid extra when you go, then you'd have to go aaaalll the way to the atm too, loadsa little things you can do to make it seem more effort than it's worth!

govinda

[Jackass] wrote: »

Hopefully this will be a lesson to me that I need to push on and not slip again.

I know exactly how you feel; have been there as well - I've honestly lost count of the number of previous quit attempts (serious and not so serious) I've made.

The only thing I can say is that everytime you cave in, you learn a bit more about yourself and how insidious nicotine can be. Thanks for posting a reminder of this.

On the plus side, you now know another potential trigger and you can plan how to overcome it next time. Good luck to you!

marco murphy

3 days after reading Carr and went in a bought some. feel rotten

Peewee_lane

The thing is Jackass, if you enjoyed it then you're in trouble but if you didnt and it tasted like ****, then good, you're on the road to recovery!