please help me, the pill is making me so crazy!!

PirateGirl

hey, im new to boards,but really needed some advice soo...
I'm 24 and I've been on Yasmin since i was 18. I always found it was reliable as birth control,didnt make me fat and made my boobs bigger-always a plus!!
I never thought it had any bad side effects really...but i was very depressed for a long time. I put this down to the many difficult circumstances i had to deal with-such as my mom kicking me out,my mom drinking dangerously,my grandmother and aunt dying,constant moving and having very few friends,boyfriend troubles,money worries- i never thought the pill had anything to do with my misery when i had so many other more likely causes!
I began to wonder if the pill was making my depression worse,tried a few others-with very unpleasant results and went off it altogether for a while. I noticed a slight lifting of my mood and it was great, but i put this down to my life improving..
Then I ended up going out with this guy who insisted i go back on the pill, for saftey as condoms are so risky. Now, this seems unrelated, but me and this guy-we fought terribly, mostly when we were drinking, i would get crazy upset about stuff, he had no patience for me, it would go on and on in a horrible spiral of destruction and cruelty, i cant even begin to tell you how abusive this relationship was. After 2years of fighting and him refuseing to sleep with me anymore because he said i was fat and ugly, (honestly-im totally not!!) i decided why the heck am i taking the pill anymore,im not having sex and its a waste of money!
and then... my personality changed..
it was so subtle i didnt put two and two together at first.
But our fights ended almost over night. I simply wasnt clingy or weepy anymore. I had so much more energy, and didnt obcess over the smallest thing, my moods improved...
it took about 4months from then to dump the guy i mentioned-which was all very hard to do,went on a bit of a crazy rebound but felt much much better after a while- and i felt like a new person!!
since then I've got a lovely house,im back in college,resolved my family issues,improved my money situation and i'm going out with the nicest,sexiest,sweetest boy that i had a crush on for years!!
This is where my problem begins:
I went back on the pill in july.
From the moment i did, i felt exhausted. The doctor said it would pass after a month,but im still needing a nap or two each day like an old lady!
And my moods... for gods sake!! Everything in my life is awesome, so great..but then why do i feel so oddly cross all the time?! I'm not exactly depressed, i just find it hard to feel happy and excited like i know i should feel.. its like im a bit numb or something. And when i go drinking, ugh, i get so weepy and arguementative-i annoy myself!! its just not me, i dont know what to do.
My poor boyfriend has been on the recieving end of quite a few black mood swings of mine and im terrified i'll drive him away with my crazieness!!
i know, its easy to say just go off the pill- but i ABSOLUTELY dont want to risk getting pregnant, and i love my boyfriend, cant keep our hands off eachother.. dont want to ruin my relationship either way, but i sure do miss the normal me.
any advice or similar pill experiences would be a great help.

Dizzyblonde

You really need to discuss this with your doctor - nobody else can recommend a pill to you.

old boy

you need medical advise a.s.a.p. maby a different brand of pill. there is no one here on boards as qualified as a doctor who will have different questions and accesments to make. just go, it is your health, which is not a guessing game.

MagicMarker

Just go off the pill. It obviously isn't doing you any good and it's not worth wrecking a relationship over.

If you use condoms correctly then the chances of you getting pregnant are low, and if it were to happen then you have options.

missyb

Hey, ask your doctor about Yasminelle, it is a lighter version of Yasmin, I have had bad experiences with the pill over the years but i am on that for a year now and I do not have problems at all, ask your doctor first though. I

Nevyn

Got and talk to your dr about your contraception option there is more then the pill
there is the patch, the nuvaring and other options.