Hate my life!!!

LegacyUser

ok heres the story im 18, im gay and im not out. too scared to tell everyone im gay. I feel guilty wen i think of guys in a sexual way. Im in 6th year, was gonna ask as girl to the debs but now shes goin with sum1 else is goin with her. I'm gonna look like a loner wen i have no1 for the debs. I can go into this in more detail but i just hate my life the way it is! thats just basically a list of what i hate bout my life

Messed Up Mind

Have you tried looking here? http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/forumdisplay.php?f=255 It's a dedicated section of boards for the LGBT community.

I know life can be pretty miserable sometimes but there's loads of good things that come with the bad. Don't feel guilty about liking guys. There's nothing wrong at all with the way that you're feeling.

I went to 2 debs when I was in school, one where a boy who had come out took his best friend to the debs and another where a girl took her new girlfriend to the debs. You can take whoever you like to your debs. You can always take a guy that you fancy and just say that he's your friend. No one's gonna be keeping tabs on who's bringing who. If anyone asks just say you haven't found the right person to bring yet. Sure it's a year away anyway!

Good luck

bp1989

I was exactly like you, and kind of still am a little.

I'm a 19 year old guy, I'm gay and I only finally told someone I was this past June. I told my best friend, and you have no idea how much it helps to tell even 1 person. Since then, I've told a few more. When I was completely in the closet, I was a pretty shy person. Now that I've told the people i trust the most, I've really come out (no pun intended) of myself, and I'm far more confident than I ever was. I find it pretty easy to strike up a conversation with just about anyone that looks in some way approachable. I feel more comfortable in myself, and I'm far happier than I've ever been before.

When I realised I was gay, I hated myself. I grew up in an area where such things we stigmatised, and felt really guilty for being this way.

But the funny thing is, when I finally told my friend I was gay, he admitted to me he was actually gay too! Haha, I kinda knew anyway, but it was pretty funny either way. The good part is that we have each other to talk to about things. I mean, boards like this are ok, but it's just not the same as talking to someone face-to-face about things.

Do you have any close friends? If you do, maybe tell them? If you're shy, maybe get a little drunk and blurt it? Or even text them some night? Explain to them that it's been really hard for you and you just need to tell someone. I guarantee they will have no problem with it. If they like you enough to be your friend, something like this wouldnt matter to them.

Also, don't feel guilty. This is the way you are, and you can't be something you're not. It's the way you were made. It's not wrong.

This may not help at all, but just know that things will get easier after you tell a single person. Just 1 person:)

LadyE

Why do you hate your life? Being gay isnt a big deal..ok it is to you, because its you...and feels like a secret.

Just tell one person, someone you can trust to get the ball rolling. You WILL feel better. I have gay friends and am told the weight off the shouders is unreal.

Why havent you told anyone, scared of feeling rejected, peoples reactions? If someone has a problem with it its THEIR problem, and not yours.

You are who you are, and there is no point living a lie.

She Devil

I am being brought back to growing up and thinking every second day i hated my life! Granted i wasn't gay, but lucky you its 2008 and society don't look on this as being a huge deal anymore. Being gay is you. Be proud of you. Ask a friend to the debs, ask a mate does his debs partner have any friends that want to go, you could have a right laugh.

unreggd

You don't have to go shouting it from the rooftops, just don't be afraid to tell people if the subject ever comes up

IMO, its just one, of many other adjectives that describe the person you are

Bring a friend to your debs, you'll have a much better time

dceire

Listen i think a big part of whats getting you down is the fact your still in school. I didn't realise until i had left school, about 5 years ago now, how insignificant and closed the whole school world is.

There's a far bigger more accepting world out there and just out of interest are you living in a city because it can be more difficult to be gay and living in the country than in the city.

Anyway here's my advice for what its worth. Finish school, go to college and move to the 'big smoke'. I'm not gay myself but have many friends who are, most of which I've met in college and nobody gives a **** in college if your gay or not. As the post above said its not a big deal & neither is the debs i never even went to mine so try not to worry about it!

Corcaigh abu

Hi maybe check out www.belongto.org its irish website for all LGBT young people maybe can find someone/some direction there. Hope it works out:)