Done everything I was suppossed to do

LegacyUser

did you ever feel you have done every thing you where suppossed to do in life?


I do!

I was part of a broken family that made it back.
All my life i fought to keep members of my family that were in care as part of my clan and now they are and I just feel that my job here is done there is nothing left for me.

All my life I had a fight to fight a war to win something to keep me going.

But now I have won that life long fight to keep us together, but what does that leave me left to do my whole existance was about fighting the system that betrayed us.

Now that we are all together there is no war for me to fight no reason to fight nothing for me to do so what is left?

All my siblings have come out of the bad life as good as I could wish not one of us blames the system every one of us loves everyone of us.

But me I feel my job was to keep us together during the bad times and I done that but what now for a life long fighter when there is nothing to fight any more, what do I do when then despite being happy we are all toghter I feel there is nothing left to fight for I feel everything I was here for is done my job is done I kept us together during the bad times, and now its all the good times but I dont feel I was meant to make it this far.

How do even explain that to anyone how do i ever tell anyone who want a relationship with me that I cant love anyone like my family because Im afraid of ever loving anyone so much that it hurts when I cant proect them and I can never be sure I can portect those I want to love......................

Victor

Now is the time to relax and enjoy it - go have some good times with your family.

And if you want more battles to fight, I'm sure there are many charities and support groups that might look for the skills you have learned.

the glass woman

Life is not one big battle OP. Now's the time to start focussing on yourself, and what else YOU want to achieve for YOURSELF. Be it a relationship, a career, new interests, or more education, there's plenty of opportunites out there, all of which makes life worth living. Don't think of yourself as a 'life long fighter', instead think of yourself as a 'life long achiever'

seahorse

OP, I know where you're coming from because the youngest of my siblings has just been released from state care. It's not something everyone will understand. All of my parents children went through the state care system, in different institutions and for differing lengths of time. Just two weeks ago we all were in the same room for the first time since the winter of '89. As far as something to keep struggling for, what you have to remember is that when the fight to pull a family together ends the fight to keep them together begins. Send me a pm if you are finding things tough; I've a feeling we've a lot in common.

owenmakken

Strange, does sound like you should have leaped by now

Wibbs

owenmakken take a week off for that unhelpful post. If you have an explanation why I shouldn't ban you I'd love to hear it. Read the charter before you come back