3 weeks 3 session's 3 days.

SnowMonkey

hey guy's i figured I do a post let you no about my progress in councilling.
maybe people who suffer from depression and maybe they can see there is no real shame with going to one because there's not, so Ive been going for 3 days now, I find it exhausting, I mean on thursday I thaught I was going to faint I was that Tired, and just drained... and slightly down..

so for the first day we talked about my problems as a hole, and explain why Ive chosen to get counciling.

The reason being, I felt Like an empty sole, Full of self dout, no self esteam, no self confidance yet i had Confidance........

It's odd the first propper session was very diffcult i had to disscuss about a teacher who bullied me it was difcult i didnt want to cry infront of some one else that day i was mixed with huge emotion's, the next day i had a huge vent on this very site. God did I feel good after wards....yes.

so day three which was yesterday...

We again delt with the teacher. This time he got an empty chair and i had to visualise him there, and say how i felt about what he did to me as a child.. some strong emotions came out dissgust hate, anger, genrally I see him as something smaller then me and put to the question what is he to me ? nothing
So any way how do i feel mentelly phiscally emotionally 3 weeks on

I feel like iv e got a sence of pride back i feel as tho im starting to have a lot more self esteam. about who i am and beleaveing i can acheave what i want to achive... i still have douts but not as bad as i did have, and begining to see there no douts at all just mean not beleaveing in my self enough and there starting to fade away... I think partly the reason to why I feel so much better is because I want to be there. as my old man say's you can lead a horse to water but hes gotta drink it.. what you put in you get out ...

So if any one would ask is councilling worth it Hell Yeah I think I may continue to go once a month in the future so if things get me down i can step on it I feel emotionally lighter Happy, you no its like haveing a poor fitting rucksack, on it dragging you donw backwards... and just the release is amazing...

so my message to people who are suffering from depression Go see one You havent got anything to be ashamed of and if you think you do dont. your just going to stay where you are in life... if you want something good to happen you have to beleave in it....

so this is 3 weeks on I cant wait to see what happens in 6 weeks

i also find my self eating every day now..... which is something i never used to do morning lunch and dinner... and i just feel more rounded so yes peeps with problems your not the only one's.... spo go for it trust me the pain can be diffcult but at then end it'le get better...

thanks for the wisdom words from the users on this in the past....

MugMugs

Well done and Congratulations SnowMonkey

krpc

Excellent post, SlowMonkey. Well done on your progress too.

SnowMonkey

thanks guys....

i just wanted to show people where things are going ... and that maybe people with similer difffcultys can see that there is help out there.....

unhappycamper

Therapy is a luxury, I went for 3 years and enjoyed every session, you will miss it when it is time to stand on your own two feet, if I was a millionaire I would get therapy forever. Best of luck and enjoy...

Marksie

thanks for the update snowmonkey and i am so glad its havnig positive benefits for you