Meaningless/Directionless

Moi2008

I was doing a postgrad last year, I'm returning this year again....

The thing is everything I do feels meaningless and directionless, in every aspect of my life, and things I used to enjoy, I don't enjoy....

I'm not happy studying on my own, or planning day to day things....the only time I am happy is when other people are around me.....

I've had some stress for nearly 2 yrs and deaths in the family, and everything seems to scare me since these incidences, I get panic attacks and feeling like I can't breath and scared there's no one to support me....even things I like, I get panic attacks doing....

need to see the fun side I guess of the whole postgrad thing in general again....I would just like to have fun as a student

I seem to have performance anxiety, if that's the phrase, as a tutor, doing the postgrad, talking out, giving presentations - I used to be positive about it and have a clear perspective but since different incidences over 2 years I'm not sure what I want, what to think or confident in what my perspective is?

can anyone give me advice?

Moi2008

I seem to be someone, even friends have noticed that people like to intimidate and degrade, I never get a break really, and its made me unhappy to be with my own thoughts and to be by myself - although before this I was always positive and enthusiastic about new things, excitable person

Stirling

Hi Moi2008!

See you're off to UCD for your PostGrad - without being too intrusive do you mind me asking what you're doing?

Red Alert

Moving this to PI as the question/answers might be more helpful there.
PI mods feel free to send back if necessary.

Flojo

Moi2008 it sounds like you are suffering from depression. Having people around you is a way to relieve your feelings it helps to take your mind off things.
You need to go talk to a professional, they can help you with all of this. You don't seem to have dealt very well with things that have happened in your past. So getting counselling and working through these feelings is the way forward. Good luck hun

dazberry

OP I would suggest you visit your GP, discuss your issues and ask for their advice and possibly a referral. Panic attacks are your fight or flight system kicking in, and its kicking in because you're anxious - and you're anxious because you've been stressed for an extended period of time. Depression seem to come as an after effect because the constant anxiety and panic attacks really effect your quality of your life.

D.

JDLK

Check with your school as they may have a free councilling service especially for students.

Not being smart but a masters isnt really a "fun" thing for anyone- the whole student vibe is more suited to undergrad, Im doing a masters and most of my class are too under pressure to worry about having any sort of fun so we're all in the same boat.